Eyebrows

And here's me. 

Thought I'd show you since I haven't posted in so long. 🤷🏻‍♀️

I've embraced my bushy eyebrows this past year and just fucking let them go wild. Seema to me that everyone wants to have that kind of eyebrows. So I guess I should be grateful lol 

And you know what else I'm grateful for? 

For not listening to my old cunt of a classmate/mates and let her shave my eyebrows off. 

Yeah, I was an outcast and that was fine. But damn, girls can be cruel. And they hated me for some reason....and they'd talk about my eyebrows and then pretend like they "cared" about me and wanted to help me by shaving my brows off. Hah. 

Yeah. No. 

So I kindly told them to go fuck themselves and no one's ever mentioned my eyebrows again. 

Y'all gotta keep in mind that back in the day, most girls literally shaved their eyebrows off cause apparently that was the fashion. Total opposite of what it is today. 

So yeah, they shaved them off, painted a thin line on and called it fashion. 🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️🤦🏻‍♀️

Ew.

Long time no see

Hey there.... It's been a while hasn't it? 

A loooong while. 

Sorry about that 😬 I didn't mean to. 

It's just that my life has been so fucked up this past year or two that I forgot to blog. Cause let's face it, what was there to blog about? 

I mean, yeah....lots of shit has happened. There's no denying that. It's been a fucking roller coaster if you think about it.....and I think everybody can agree that 2020 sucked fucking ass, am I right? 

 But somehow I kinda just lost the urge to write. I even distanced myself from people and social medias in general. 

You could say I was having a hard time accepting facts about my disease, among other things. And I still haven't fully accepted all of it if I'm gonna be completely honest. 🤷🏻‍♀️ But I do have a plan now. Might not be the best of plans but it's a fucking plan and I'm running with it. Hmph!  

But I'm gonna try to get more into writing again too. We'll see how that goes 🙄 Don't judge me too hard if I fail lol But writing, even just writing about what a giant turd I shit out this morning, still makes me feel like I've done something. (I mean the writing, not shitting out a giant turd) And it's also about time that I surrendered and accepted facts in life. Doesn't mean I'll stop fighting though 😏

But anyway, look at my little Freyster here. She ain't so little anymore is she? 

My beautiful little winter princess. 

I can at least give y'all an small useless update on life at the moment:

At the moment, I'm getting ready to go out for a walk with Frost & Freyster. I woke up not long ago from snuggling Frost. And Freya came in and jumped us in bed and we all had a cuddle party as she likes to call it. It was fucking awesome btw.  Not to sound like I'm bragging, but I do feel lucky that I have a husband that loves me the way he does. And the way he makes me feel. And I'm lucky to have a daughter with such a philosophical and deep mind. They're both super supportive of me..

I had a knee surgery two weeks ago and they've been all over me trying to help and shit. I've been wrapped up in cellophane wrap and ducttape and showered like an alien baby by Frost. Fed like a puppy by Freya. Snuggles every day. And I'm so ready to get better lol Also damn, just got a massive heartburn. Shit. Well that's just icing on the cake 😑🍰

I'd say Frosts love, support and his snuggles, and Freya's love laughter and her deep mind is what had kept me going. As cheesy as it sounds, I'm fucking grateful for having my family. 

Cause I do hate myself more often than not, but whenever that happens: those two crazy fartstains do their best at either changing my mind or distracting me hahaha 😜

Watching series 👀

As most of y'all know, both Frost and I fucking love binge watching good shows and shit ✨✅ I mean, who doesn't really? 🤷🏻‍♀️

But anyway, currently there's a bunch of shows we're enjoying.... But I'm always looking for something new and unique anyway.
I tried watching Carnival row, but it just didn't get stuck on me.

Ah, I did however plunge through the entire series of Lost recently. I'm one of those people that had never watched that show.
It said online that it's considered to be one of the best series through all time (🙄) with good plots and a great ending.

Neither me nor Frost agrees with that though 😒


Anyway, currently these are the shows we're watching or waiting for s new season to come.

New season out on Netflix now, so yay~

If you've watched all the old star trek series, obviously you'd wanna watch Picard too right?

So far, soooo amazing. 

Just waiting for another season 💔

This one follows the books pretty accurately tbh... It's kinda good. 

Yet another one where we can only eagerly wait for another season. 

Hey, managed to get Josse to play through the Witcher games though. So that's pretty neat~

And here, this show I actually enjoyed. 

Obviously some things are funny. 

Other funny things are how stupid commentators was when it came to their knowledge about blind people. Lmao 😂

Btw, I was literally just wondering about wether there'll be a new season of Westworld coming or not?
And Frost told me like just a few seconds ago that it's actually coming within a week or two 😀😀😀

Yaaasss....

Super smash bros

This is how Freyster looks when she wins a game lmao

(Yeah I knoooow....this is a PlayStation controller. Not a Nintendo. But it's still the same movements on her part haha)

Freya made chili

Freyster made dinner yesterday 👌🏻

And when it was almost done, she made me call my brother and invite him over for dinner. She wouldn't take no for an answer 😂

Haha she actually made a very tasty chili. However, it was spicy in the slightest. Even though I managed to secretly throw in some chili powder in it. Freyster dislikes spicy food the most so she kept an eye on the pot the entire damn time haha
But it was still very tasty~

This was also the first time Freya hosted a dinner 🤷🏻‍♀️ Yep.  The first time she thoroughly made dinner AND invited someone over to eat it together with her. I thought it was adorable, so how could I say no?

So I did as I was told, called my brother and even made sure to let him know that Freyster won't take no for an answer. ✨

Frost really likes this pic from yesterday of me. So this is for my dork~ 👌🏻✨

20 minutes later he was here, and Freya had set the table by herself, fixed everything and even cleaned her room juuuuust to be safe 😂

Feed the duckies 🦆🐥

Alright, here I am again.

Yes I'm in a desperate need 

of a haircut, I know 🤦🏻‍♀️

Anyway, It's been a very calm and slow weekend. I've had a massive headache most part of the weekend actually. Like, 95% of the entire fucking weekend. 😒😒😒 And not just the weekend.... It's strange, but I had had it most part of the week.

But that's ok, I've still had some good times 💗

Yep, we went to feed the ducks today. Had a bit of oats laying around, plus I've always liked feeding them so... 🤷🏻‍♀️

Yep, we've really had a nice weekend~

Met an old friend, doodling and super smash Bros.

Suuuuup~

Have you heard anyone say "sup" seriously lately? It's like an ancient treating these days haha Still funny though.

Anyway, my doorbell rang today. And once I opened it I saw a really familiar happy smile 😊
My old friend Patrick stood there, and I had no idea why the fuck he'd just show up like the tooth fairy or something. Turns out he was doing inspections on the apartments here.
We talked a bit, and then talked way too much in messenger afterwards.

Y'all know in a pro at chit chatting sometimes hahaha
The poor guy got trapped with my constant rambling 😂

Nah, but really. It was nice to reminisce about the old days. Dinners spent in Zinkgruvan, partiets and videogames. Good times~

Anyway, I was happy seeing him again 😁 He's going to give Freya his Dragonball comics ✨
I can't even describe how excited she got when she heard that haha

Ah, earlier when I was reading in the living room, I heard pitter-patter and chatting from Freyster's room. So I went to take a peak.

It really was an adorable sight hahah

Also, apparently a very vile and disgusting person is trying to weasel it's way back into my life. Which ain't gonna happen. That dickweed can keep the smiles and flattery. It's nauseating.

I.am.not.liking.it.


No worries. I have no problem openly insulting and degrading that sack of shit dumbass. ✨👌🏻




Well, this day has been really nice. Finally. Cause the rest of the week sucked. 😒
So this was a real nice change.
Freyster played a lot of Nintendo tonight. Mostly Super smash Bros.
I even played against her too. I tried so hard going easy on her, but then she jumped right Infront of me when I had powered up an attack....... Aaaaand she flew right off the arena 😬
But she had fun. And that's all that matters. She also got real good using Ryu's character.


Mommy's so proud 😍😍😍

Well would ya look at that, I'm still here lol

Look guys, I'm making another blog post so soon. Amazing ain't it? 😂

So, first if all. I'd like to brag about my amazing fucking deeeelicious chocolate chip cookies I made for valentine's Day. Yep yep. 
Since Freyster was going ice skating early that day I have some to mom Lasse and her to nibble on in between the breaks haha 🤗 Apparently they were very appreciated. Neat~

I mean come on.... Look at these awesome cookies. They really were tasty AF 🤷🏻‍♀️ Freyster decorated them haha

And this is how that valentine's day's girl looked that day 💜

I know right? Ain't she the most adorable little turd you've ever seen? 🖤

Ah, I even got a VERY nice gift from mom too that day. A voluspa scented candle. Fuck yeah~

I don't know about you guys, but I sure as shit LOVE scented candles. 

Well, y'all know nothing exciting really happen in my life so it's not like I have a ton of shit to report here really 🤷🏻‍♀️

It's just the same as always, reading, Freya's ice-skating, taking Freya to her dance class, drawing, talking about drawing btw.... I feel like I've come to a deadlock.
I can't figure out what color to chose for the bush in the left corner. Help....

I just made those small yellow dots so I know where to paint the fireflies later once everything is colored and shit. There's going to be fireflies everywhere once it's completed. 

Freyster & Doris watching the firefly moon. 

Catchy name for it. 

Inspiration

Alright, so I've been drawing and shit more recently. 

I suppose you could say that we, as a family have made s lot of changes at home in general. But I'm working hard on improving myself in many ways. 

And I wanna paint more and more now. 

I've got a ton of inspiration, so we'll see what I cook up next. 

I'm planning a ginormous canvas where I'm going to paint Freya & Doris running along behind the stone wall in Zinkgruvan ✨👌🏻

Plus, I really love making unique detailed backgrounds. 

This is just a doodle I made to see which one could be good on a big canvas. This ain't it. This just wasn't meant to be on a big canvas. But I like it anyway. 

It's of my daughter after all~

Play times

So, recently Freyster's been skating and swimming every week. Last Friday we went ice skating, which she loves. And is surprisingly good at too btw 🤷🏻‍♀️

And today we went to Kumlas bathhouse again for some fun and junk. This time Lasse came along as well.

It's been a really good day today, plus that cake was a pleasant surprise treat too 😁✨👌🏻

And Freyster was so exhausted after playing in the water for so long, so she passed out in the car on her way home. My little baby.... 💖