Latte and Renoir on a good Monday

So, this is a post I forgot to post basically. (I wrote it Monday but forgot to click post ahaha)

But I was actually at the hospital on Monday. We had a big meeting and it went surprisingly well. I was so terrified that the pain clinic would say that I'm too broken to be fixed or something. (well I can never be fixed lmao but you know what I mean.) that it'd be too complicated. 

But they actually had a bunch of good ideas. 

And as of now I'm starting swimming (for freeeeeeee) and I have a certain workout that I need to do (for freeeee)  

It feels lame when I do it though, cause it's so fucking easy. But since I can't regulate my strength, the physiotherapist felt that using small movements in an easy way is better so I can learn to not use full strength and not lock my joints. 

I'm hopeful anyway. In the water it ain't as easy to lock all my joints, so I should be able to just move around freely then. 

I've also quit taking a certain medicine. The medicine itself actually worked ok on me... But unfortunately that shit made me gain weight like crazy so eventually I felt like it wasn't worth it. Sure I'd like to get free from my pain, but I also don't like being fat. It's not that I'm vain, I just wanna feel content about myself. 

So I figured that this new shit I'm gonna do is gonna help. 

After the 2 hour meeting (I always have long sessions there... Ugh) I went to see mom. And mom was actually released the day after. Yay!! Good stuff, good stuff. 💙

Welp, I've got such a schedule to keep now. Shit... But I'm hopeful. 

Oh and on the same day we got incredibly awesome news. 🌸 Woho! I'll tell you all about it some other time though (no I'm not pregnant, Jesus...) 

But it's definitely awesome news! 

Iiiiih!! 🌟

Little mom

So, right after our lunch mom went to the ER... and then she was put in the ICU.

And now she back in the same place she was last time.

Mom's not doing too well...but she's responding really well to the antibiotics do that's good at least.
I just wish shit would work and that she'd get better.
My heart breaks when mom is suffering so much...


Shit just ain't the same without her.

PlayerUnknown's battleground

I'm probably getting this game once it's released for xbox one 💛





PlayerUnknown's battleground looks like it'd be epic :D

Lunchdate

Horror flicks

Ok, it's almost Halloween. (superyay btw)'

And with Halloween comes horrormovies. It's a must, that's just how it is.



But before I put up my "to watch list", I figured I'd post The New Mutans trailer for those who haven't seen it.
See, I love the mutans... and I love horror movies..so... imagine how thrilled I got when I saw this lol





Amazing huh?
I can't wait! :D



Ok, so...A To Watch horror / dark movie list.

Here we go!

Number 1: Beetlejuice 👈 (beacuse why the fuck not? it's one of my favorite movies)
2: IT (The new one, it'll soon be one of the best cult movies in history)
3: The Babysitter (if you havent's seen it on Netflix, watch it. It's awesome haha)
4: The Conjuring 1 and 2
5: Oculus
6: Zombieland
7: The original Night of the living dead
8:The Exorcist
9: Evil Dead 1,2,3
10: The Babadook
11: The Birds (by Alfred Hitchcock)
12: Body snatchers (I was so scared when I watched this movie as a kid)
13: Don't breathe
14: Jaws
15: Poltergeist (the newer version)
16: Gerald's game
17: The autopsy of Jane Doe (now this one actually freaked me out real bad lol)
18:  And despite what people think, I like Bram Stokers Dracula so I'm gonna put it here too.
20: . . . . . Uh... I'm atill thinking about this one.(if series is ok, then I guess stranger things or The Exorcist series, or Outcast, I loved that one.Or Slasher on netflix)

The toilet is my throne

I am so fucking tired......first of all I think I'm sick 😅
Well I suppose it was my turn anyway, since Freya is all good now.

I might as well move into the bathroom and make it my kingdom. Yep.


So...here's some deep thoughts for ya'll.

Me and Frost have been having very fun conversations tonight.
Mostly about artificial intelligence, androids and what ifs and so on.
How the future will be, how one day robots will have their own mind. And I still believe that when that day comes they'll be anything but peaceful. I mean, imagine how they (hypothetically) have been treated. Perverts buying robots looking like women so they can fuck them. Sure, now they claim it's for healthcare and for the robots to help us in our lives in the future... (but we all know how many pervs are gonna buy them to have as sex toys)  But basically for a robots that's developed it's own mind, that would be like being raped and abused over and over. They'd get emotionally branded.

So in the future, they would retaliate and want their own lives just like in Blade Runner (I'm talking about the old one. Duh) I mean, there's already a rumour that there's been one robot that passed the turing test. So, imagine what happens in the future. Dun dun duuuuun.

So me and Frost discussed that what if they'll be capable of loving someone? Just like in Blade Runner? And humans, as vicious as they are (cause we humans are nasty. Most humans fear what they don't understand)  they'd probably try to do just like they do in all robot movies, put them somewhere else, or "retire" them. Like I am Robot, or Blade Runner.

Cause seriously, the scene at the end...it's so beautiful when he says "like tears in the rain".. Gosh.




I'm not gonna go on about how I believe that he's actually a replica too, cause that's for others to debate about (since I already made up my mind) 

Frost and I fucking loved Westworld.  (now if you haven't watched it, you truly have missed out on something incredible) And the storyline is amazing. So let's just assume that that could happen in the future. I mean, of course it'll happen. It's just about when it'll happen.



Soooo, here's my battle list for the top 6 + 1  A.I. and robot characters to have in a war./fight/adventure

I'd pick Data (star trek) cause of his genius mind,
and Vision (from the avengers) cause he's very smart and strategic as the leaders.
For the heavy combat: (I would pick Cell from Dragonball Z, but he's a fucking asshole...so...) I'd probably pick Agent Smith (from the Matrix) instead, cause he's smart and strong and adaptive. Amazing fighting techniques etc etc...
And Dolores (from wetworld, though not the nice Dolores, the darknone) Cause duh. Epic. She's badass.
And to fight alongside me: Re-I (Ergo Proxy) cause her story is just...deep. 💛
And..... Walter (Alien Covenant) Cause he's just adorbs 💙 They both would make good friends.

And as the +1, I choose Susano (from Gigantic Formula) Cause I'm just nerdy, and I've always loved robots. haha

What's yours?

too warm

Freyas fever is too high and she's been throwing up. Threw up in the middle of the night, and just now all over me, the sofa and my phone. She hates throwing up.

She says her head hurts a lot too and that makes me feel uneasy.

See, most people probably wouldn't worry that much.
But I do.

Ever since I had meningitis that the doctors claimed could've been a virus that I got from the daycare. And that worries me...cause it's easy to miss meningitis on children.

I missed it so easily on myself so it makes me so worried that she'd have it.

I've always felt that it's a scary disease, ever since an old coworkers 5 year old daughter died from it. It took 24 hours and then she was gone. They didn't even notice it, she just got a fever and then poof...she was gone.


So this is what I carry inside my head whenever Freya gets a really high fever, and this time she says her head hurts.
it escalated quickly.
So don't blame me for worrying.

But damn, I am tiiiiiiiiired.

Well damn

Freya didn't even get a chance to go outside today, the daycare called and told me that she had a really high fever and wouldn't stop crying. So of course I rushed over and picked her up.

She was scorching hot. And it seriously worries me cause it's 10pm right now and she's "asleep"... but her fever is still so high.
She was such a good girl though, and drank all her medicine even though it was nasty.

Mama's little weasel.

Looks like it'll be a long night here. Yep...

My precious snugglepuff

This little weasel is a whole bundle of things. She brings me so much happiness ❤

She's epic at driving me insane too of course lol It's the least you can expect from my daughter. 

But she also makes me purr from joy when she smiles, when she hugs me and says she missed me. When she laughs and tries to pull a joke haha

She's hilarious when she says she's got an idea and holds her finger up. That idea is ALWAYS 'candy'.

She's very smart, so loved, kind and generous. She's loving and funny and stubborn too. 

She's hard headed, sneaky and at times even a tiny bit spoiled. 

But always generous and loving and kind.
She has a tendency to beat boys up, especially older boys who tease her or tease her friends.
I myself told her that I will always be proud if she's protecting someone. She can be very brave and feisty.

She is a lot of things. And she's worth more than every star in the sky. 

And I love her more than there's fish in the sea. 

Every day is a day when you should appreciate your loved ones. 

And so, I appreciate Frost too cause he helped me obtain all this happiness. He's a handful too, they both are. But I wouldn't want it any other way. ❤ I love being with them.
Suuuure, sometimes I wouldn't mind some peace and quiet and sleeping in in the morning. But whatevs, there will be time for that later.

For some reason I always love hanging out with Frost. It's been 5 and a half years or so now, and I still love hanging out with him :) It doesn't get boring.

You guys are perfect the way you are. ❤❤❤

Also, ain't she cute in her new hat?

Yet another Grey day

It's colder than I thought today. I hope I dressed Freya warm enough. She's got her mittens and hat and furry sweater and West. I hope it's enough.

Frost made me coffee just now. ☕

I wasn't gonna take a picture nor make a blog post today, but then I noticed how the surroundings looked when I put down the cup.

You can definitely tell I child lives here 😂

We made pancakes last night, Freya ate like horse. Still got some in the fridge so Freya even got a pancake for breakfast too. 

I should probably eat some soon too, but for now we're all huddled up in the living room watching a show. It's cold AF in here. 

And you know what? 

I just happen to love cold weather!
Best snuggle weather there is. Cuddle up under a nice warm blanket. ❤
Maybe some hot cocoa, yeah it's awesome. 

Win win.