Weekend & babies

Ooooh Me and Frost were alone this weekend actually, Freya was in Stockholm attending a birthday party 🎈 And then they went to Zinkgruvan and stayed the night.

And me and Josse and Doris visited dad & Kuti on Saturday. We actually had a good time and ate good shit from Al Forno~
We also talked about their move to Skåne. They're moving in November.
I'm excited about that, plus Marty lives like 15 minutes away from their new apartment so that's fucking awesome sauce~ 🥳

But yeah, we had a good weekend and a good time at dad's ✨

I've never liked the 19th of October. It's always felt negative to me. 

Aaaand Kim was about to give birth this Saturday, the 19th 🙄😂 "you think you could keep it tight till the 20th? 😂  You don't wanna give birth on an unlucky negative day right?"🤷🏻‍♀️ I basically forbade her to give birth that day lmao

Stevie knows that I've always had a negative feeling towards the 19th, so he was the one the wrote me on Friday telling me he was "worried" that the baby was gonna be born on such a bad day 😂 haha She was dilated 1cm, and her contractions were pretty painful. So I thought that the baby was definitely gonna come at least this weekend.

But who would've thought that even the baby felt that the 19th was a unlucky day? 🤣
She was still only dilated 1cm at the end of the day haha
To be honest, if that little jellybean was born on the 19th, he would've changed the feeling I have for that day anyway.

Did I mention that they chose not to find out the gender of the baby? This makes it even more exciting. I wonder what it's going to be. Frost and I believe it's a boy 🤷🏻‍♀️ I'm gonna be an aunt again 🥰


Anyway, I've basically been on the phone with him the entire weekend.😅 I realized that they were NOT properly prepared when it came to certain things, so I sat down and talked to him and her for hours.🤗
Explaining things and going through important steps. And I think they're properly prepared now.

I can't wait for the jellybean to be born 🎈 I bet he's going to be so cute. Normally, babies ain't cute at all the same day they're born.

I mean, Freya looked like she was Asian 🤣🥰 Not that I dislike Asians, I'm just pointing out that babies look really different the first day. Freya was actually pretty cute just a few hours after she was born for some reason. I was expecting her to look like a turd 🤷🏻‍♀️😂
This pic was a few hours after she was born.🍀  And I remember that we were all actually surprised at how fucking cute she was. (Everyone except Josse probably 😅🤷🏻‍♀️)
 Since everybody knows that babies are pretty ugly the first day, or first few days in some cases lol

Freyster really was (and still is) adorable💕 

At first I thought me & Frost only thought that way cause we're her parents. Parents normally think their kids are the cutest you know?

But mom, and the rest of the family said she was increeeeedibly cute and my friends too 🥰

But I still somewhat thought that they were just saying it to be nice or cause they were biased, you know? 🤷🏻‍♀️

But then Sofi & Lykke came by and when she said, I believed it. Sofi is that type of person who's brutally honest just like me. 

Obviously I believed Marty & Nathalie too when they said that she was cute, but I also thought that they were slightly biased since we're so close. So I thought that they just got blinded by love since they're kind of her aunties. 🥰😅

But she really was adorable. 

Frost always said SHE'S FUCKING ADORABLE. And he's always been very honest, and he's able to see if his baby is ugly it not lol He doesn't get biased haha

But I honestly think that jellybean is gonna be cute the same day he's born.

And Stevie, even if your baby is ugly as hell the first day... I'm sure he'll look adorable after a day or two.
Hopefully he didn't inherit your looks at all, so he'll look so sweet 👌🏻✨

I'm so happy for you guys~

Today's Monday, and hopefully she's dilated more than 1 cm now. Iiiiih exciting! 🎉🎊🎉🎂🎉

Monday 🍁

This morning was so nice~

It's not like there was anything out of the ordinary, but it was just the way the morning felt you know?

I woke up really early (early for being us you know lol) and it was pitch black outside. Yeah, have y'all noticed how the mornings and evenings are really really dark these days.

It's heavenly right?

See, some people gets seasonal depressions during the autumn. But I, I get more relaxed and calm. Cause I feel at ease more now that it's so dark outside. The darker it is, the calmer I get.  Which is a huge reason for why I really love autumn and winter. But it's just one of the reasons.
Other reasons are the cold weather, the lovely colors in the trees, you get to wear knitted stuff and knit scarves and beanies, AND you get to drink hot chocolate at night when it's cold and raw outside, and Halloweeeeeeeeeen too 🎃, booooy don't get me started on Halloween lol And then there's the Christmas shenanigans too 🎄✨ Fucking hell I sure do love Christmas. And with that there's so many fun cozy things to do so it's too much for me to mention, and what else...hmm... Ah, Yes like I said earlier; the days gets shorter and darker 🙌🏻

Basically, this is the season of hot chocolate & snuggles under blankets 🖤🖤🖤
And this fam fucking love snuggles & cuddles & hot chocolate. 🥰


So the reason why this morning was so wonderful was simply cause I woke up and it was so dark, I felt a warn lump next to me. Freya had come in to our room last night, and she weaseled her way up in our bed and snuggled.
Frost was already up, doodling around in the living room. And when he heard that I woke up, he came back to bed and snuggled with us some more.
It was just nice, you know?
Waking up with a warm little babypuff snuggled up against me, it was dark and cold outside and I could tell that it's been raining during the night. And then my man came back and made the bed even warmer and cozier 🖤

I've still got it

Mwehehehe.....

Yesterday in town, me and Frost strolled around a bit and then ended up talking enthusiastically with a store owner.

In the end I asked if they don't happen to be looking for new employees, and the owner looked super disappointed and said "no.... I hired two more and they'll start tomorrow".

And I joked and said "well that sucks, you know I'm much better than them 😜" and then he shocked me by saying "Yes! I know! I can tell! I get super good vibes from you and I love your attitude and energy. Can't you at least give me your resume anyway? Cause you'd fit in so well here".

And that fucking surprised me. Haha

I was half joking you know. 🤷🏻‍♀️

But I decide to pick up on his offer so... Yeah.

It's nice to hear that I've still got it lol

But mostly it's nice to hear that someone likes my attitude and energy 🙃  It's been a while since worked, and I really wanna go back to working. But I don't wanna work just anywhere.

I've gone through way too much bullshit at some workplaces and I'm fucking done being everyone's little bitch 🤷🏻‍♀️ The way I was treated when I was 22, is definitely NOT how I'll let anyone treat me at 33. Nope.
I won't even let my boss treat me the way I was treated in the past.

Even at my last job, I was liked by the manager and the boss, but as per usual... Me and the coworkers clashed. I mean I get it... It's hard getting along with cunts. And they were that fake kind of cunt. They pretend to be so fucking good and sweet and kind, but in reality they'll stab you in the eye with a spoon when they get a chance too. 🤷🏻‍♀️ Always so much trashtalking. Why? I don't get it. And why am I always labeled as the dick cause I choose to be honest and tell people what I think instead of trashtalking? I don't get it. It doesn't make any sense. Like, would you rather have me talking shit about you behind your back,.making life hard for you...instead of me facing you? 🙄🙄🙄

People are dumb.

Talking about jobs, I ran into an old colleague earlier, when me and Frost were out for a walk.

Now, she and I... We had a good work relationship. She was an older woman and I noticed early on that she was definitely bullied by the others. So obviously I tried to make her feel less lonely. And I even stood up for her in front of the others. Which was the beginning of MY lovely work experience. 🤦🏻‍♀️ Gosh they hated me lmao 😂 But she and I still got along real good. Together with a few others.

But when I quit, it never occurred to me that her life would be shitty again. Since I thought that they finally stopped bullying her.
But I guess when you've been bullying someone for 13 years, you can't just stop and not do it anymore huh? 😑

Anyway, I met her today. And I asked her she was, and she suddenly just starts crying. The tears keep falling and I'm terrible at comforting people....
And she tries to apologize for crying and then hiding, so I just went up and hugged her from behind cause she's so tiny.
She couldn't even explain what was wrong. But she didn't have to.
I asked her if things still hadn't gotten better, and she shook her head. And I asked her if they're treating her even worse now, and she nodded.

Man, that made me so sad. I feel so sorry for her.

Even when I worked there, the bosses just avoided dealing with everyone's bullying. Cause everyone talked shit about everyone there. Either you talked shit and made a lot of noise, or you stayed silent and did your job and became someone people disliked.
 And the ones who were quiet just became the weaker ones, since no one heard them.
And she and the others that liked me belonged to that latter group. 🤷🏻‍♀️
So when I got fired, when they tried to speak up for me... No one listened to them.
I felt more sorry for them than for me back then. Cause it really showed how fucked up the system is sometimes. And she's STILL working there. Still hating it. Still being tormented. Just cause she's a little different. God I hated that group of people. They were a bunch of flaccid std dicks. 🤬


But I've decided to do something about it. If I can help her even the slightest, then that's what I should do.


So I'm gonna fuck shit up for the management now. 👌🏻🎉

Foodies

Ok, so yesterday I decided to cook some shrimp pasta for Frost. 

Now, I don't eat shrimps 🤮

But my man suuuure do love them.

So I was originally making shrimp pesto pasta. But I figured that I'd up it a notch, and add heavy cream and parmesan too. So I did. 

I ended up with a very happy full and satisfied husband lmao 

And tonight, we did a meatloaf, with apples, red onions and potatoes around it. 🤷🏻‍♀️ Simple, yet delicious.
Made some brown gravy while iw as at it too. Ooooom nom nom nom.

Good times~


Ah ok, I think I've bragged enough now 👌🏻

When Friday adventures happen

Friday was a good day.

I mean, yeah... I ended up with a fucking headache that lasted throughout the entire weekend. But still. Friday was a good fucking day~ 🖤

Freya and Frost and I went to the dentist around noon. Freyster has 20teeth, and they're in mint condition haha The dentist complimented her and said that she has super good and clean teeth and that her parents sure are brushing them good 😁 So that made Freya happy.

After that, Josse picked us up... So me, Freyster & Josse went to another town to have some fun at a fair.

Freyster had some much fun~
And she got a rainbow unicorn balloon... Not many things can too that lmao 😂🌈🦄

Candy rain, bouncing castle, donuts and candied apples. Shiiieeeet.... 🤷🏻‍♀️

It was a good Friday adventure 🖤
And she wasn't the only one who had fun 😊 I enjoyed myself way too much for being adult lmao 😂

Borderlands 3

Friday was a borderlands day, Sunday is as well.


I decided to begin the day with The Prodigy to get in some killing mood lmao

Let's get it cracking, Borderlands 3 :D

This time, I decided to be Moze. (she new bruuuh)  Instead of the hunter like last time. Though I did enjoy having a falcon attacking for me. Maybe I should've picked Fl4k hmm?

Oh well, I got some badass killing trophies for this shit so I guess Moze suits me just fine lmao
Normally, I'd prefer to play on the xbox. But meh....Frost won.



Eeey, one of the best seasons coming up now btw bro.

🖤🖤🖤🖤🖤

We've had a nice weekend. 

I gotta say, The Dark Crystal is fucking addicting.. 🤷🏻‍♀️

Well,.so is Gears 5 sooo.....yeah. It's all about prioritizing really. Dark crystal with Freya, Gears 5 after she's gone to bed. 

Except last night. Yeah, last night me and Frost just ended up on the couch snuggling all fucking evening after Freyster went to bed. 

After 11 sometime, my brother got back in town so I met up with him for a quick chat.
We decided to eat dinner in the living room yesterday, it was Freya's choice aaaaand she ate hers a little.... different. I'll show ya'll a pic of that haha 

She wanted a picnic with her friends. 

Normally I'd say no to eating on the floor 🙄 But whatever. 

Maybe this will be a fun and sweet memory for her when she's older? 

Who knows. 

And today, is just another rainy day. And I can't complain 😊 it's rather nice wouldn't you say?? 

Well maybe not for the guys working on the roof on the building across the street. But for people staying at home playing videogames or watching Netflix, this weather is perfect. 👌🏻

Btw, I made the what fucking chili last night. I was supposed to do it a few days ago, but you know....stuff. 🤷🏻‍♀️

Buuuut... The reason I'm even mentioning the chili, is cause Freyster LOVED it. And that made me happy haha 🤗  I'm quite easy to please. 

Another thing that made me oh so happy is the fact that Freya likes pea soup. 🎉 Yay! I'm not the only one liking it anymore. Scoooooore~

And yes, that's a fuckton of corn in her peasoup. 🤷🏻‍♀️ 

She likes it so... What can I say haha

Coffee and cuddles

 Yeah, it's a coffee & cuddles kind of day today ☕🥰🌧️

A rainy and grey day 🌧️😊 Just the way I like it.
And autumn's here finally.🍁🎉
Oh how I've longed for this season 🤷🏻‍♀️✨🍁🍂

So we're making it a family day, we're  watching The Dark Crystal on Netflix with Freya, and me and Frost are enjoying our coffee. ☕✨

He's been making our own coffee these days. Yup. Grinding our own beans and shit. He seems to enjoy it.

I gotta admit that the coffee he makes does taste amazing 👌🏻 so I guess there really is a difference between freshly ground coffee and store bought coffee ☕

Hmm...who would've thunk?

Ugh... I've been crappy at blogging, and I suppose one reason is that my EDS has kind of flared up like fucking crazy. It makes me loose interest in shit. But recently I've started doing things again so I'm happy about that. No one knows exactly how bad I've been feeling. Frost doesn't even know the exact amount of pain I've gone through, cause if I told people...they'd worry way too much and I know they'd get sad too. Cause let's face it, this shit is depressing as fuck. 
But recently, I met a good doctor.. and things started looking up after that, I gradually got better.
And now I'm drawing again, working out, meeting friends, talking more with them as well, going out more and playing games again. I'm scared that this is "too good to be true", so I decided to just enjoy it while it lasts 😏

Talking about games guys.... Y'all played Gears Of War 5 yet? Cause daaaayyuuuum... So nostalgic. It's nothing like the 4th one, it's got more of an older feeling. Going back to the early games. I like that. We played it for hours last night after Freyster went to bed.
I'll write more about Gears of war later though.


Ok, Josse just picked up Freyster for a walk, and I' gonna chit chat with Sofi a bit and help Frost will the laundry. When Freyster comes home she and I will make some chili 👍 (I keep teaching my friends how to make my chili, maybe I should start charging them lmao I feel like everyone loves it  too much, so I teach it to them so I don't have to cook for them hahaha) 😂  Welp, I do know no one can make it better than me. Plus, Freya has learned what it means when I say I cook with love haha She's so cute 💖💖💖

Haircuuuuuut

I don't know if y'all remember.... But if you know me and/or have been reading my blog for a long time... You might remember that I cut Frost's hair on our wedding day. In the last minute. And since I was somewhat stressed out (cause who the fuck wants to be late for their own god damn wedding?! Am I right?!)  . . . Yes I'm trying to justify why I commited such a huge sin 🙄😑

But anyway, like I said.. I cut his hair. I had an idea, while he just wanted to shave all of it off. My idea won.

But..... I sliiiipped 😬😳 at the last second. Fucking it all up. He was . And fucking devastated and furious lol and ashamed and just dejected as fuck.
And all these feelings he had was mostly cause I refused to let him shave it all off. Cause I figured that we might be late if we do? So, I forced him to go to our wedding with a fucked up hairdo. 😫

And I swear, he's still upset about it to this day. Haha
We don't have any wedding photos at home, nor will he show them to anyone. He'll just crop himself out and show me and Freya to people 😅

And obviously, like any normal being, I felt horrible about it. I still do.

So, the other day... Frost wanted my help to shave it all off.

And yet again, I decided not to let him shave it off 😂

But hear me out... See, I wanted to cut his hair instead. Not shave it off. Plus I agreed that he can shave it all off if I slip or make it ugly 🤷🏻‍♀️

And yay me~

I finally got to show him how I originally intended for his hair to be on our wedding. He looks so nice right now.

I made sure to cut it extra short on the top, since his hair grows like fucking bamboo. 😬😬😬 ( uhm ........Bamboo grows fast as fuck btw. 👈🏻  Like 35 inches per day sometimes...so.. yeah hence the parable🤷🏻‍♀️)
Moving on: I managed to give him a very nice haircut. 🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻

Isn't he beautiful? 😍😍😍

Ok I don't really understand why I wrote half a novel about a simple haircut. I got carried away I guess. 🙃

I guess it's cause I have such a haaaaandsome husband that I subconsciously wanna brag or something? 🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️ Hahaha 😄

Hahahaha omg talking about my dear sweet husband, y'all should have seen the girl behind the cash register at the store hitting on him 😂 It was epic!

 She was so brave though, and I kinda respected her guts to flirt with him in English and by the register too. I find it impressive when a woman dares to openly hit on a guy in a non slimy and nasty way, you know what I mean? She did it in a funny and respectful kinda way. The things she said was funny anyway 🤷🏻‍♀️

But then after a while when he was about to pay, she held up something he was buying, questioning it I guess? So he said "well I don't have much choice. It's for my wife🤷🏻‍♀️" and she immediately chocked up and said "aaah... hahaha... weeeell this is awkward now hahaha oh wow" 😂😂😂😂
And then she apologized about it and they continued with their shit. Haha
I love how she took it. Seriously, if I was a single man I'd take the bait immediately if she was that funny about it.
She was pretty too.

A friend of mine asked me if I got jealous in that situation, and tbh... I didn't. I wasn't jealous at all.
And it's not because I trust him too much, it's more like I KNOW him. Like, I know he'd never cheat on me. So that's more about knowledge than blind trust right?

But anyway, yeah.. that girl was funny a hell, and the way she hit on him was funny and smooth AF. So how could I not respect her? 😁

I would however probably get annoyed if she kept on hitting on him and never stopped even after he said he was married. But probably not. It's more likely that I'd feel like that's his problem and I'm glad I don't have to deal with it hahahahah 😂😂😂 I'm such a caring and loving wife huh? 🤣

But really, the people close to me knows that there was this one weird lady that in my opinion got slightly obsessed with him. To the point that he couldn't handle it anymore almost. Like when I cut my hair and she saw it, and Frost said 'yeah doesn't she look good like this? I like it" and the very next day she cut her hair exactly like mine. She questioned him about how I was as a person, and then did a whole bunch of weird and morally questionable things. There are certain ways you just don't act. Except it seemed like she never got that memo.

 And she even said weird things to me about him as well. Though I never really took it as a bad thing. I wasn't offended or anything. But I also didn't realize just how bad she was really.

 I obviously found it strange that another woman wanted him to look like he was her husband when they were outside (?) Even though she claimed she didn't. She said she just looooved how people "assumed" that he was her husband 🙄🙄🙄 uuugh...

I think he cut her off pretty soon after that if I remember correctly.🤔 He couldn't handle her fucking shit. And I felt sorry for "forcing" him to hang out with her. When he told me that he didn't wanna have anything to do with her anymore, I knew she had probably taken it too far and he was serious, so I told him to just stop then. Just quit. Block her and ignore her. So he did.

But see, even then I wasn't jealous, I was annoyed at her being so psychotic pushing my man too far. But I wasn't jealous. I know my snuggletree. I know him better than anyone. 💕

But I really didn't like how she treated him. 😒
She was aware of how Frost was. She knew he was shy and anti social, yet she continuously tried to put him through awkward and weird shit publicly. Like trying to make him look like he was her husband and stuff, forcing him to be social outside with people he didn't know.
That shit was not cool.

And for that, I disliked her. Simple as that.

She could try to steal my man, but I knew she'd loose the battle lmao 😂😂😂😂

We both ended up blocking her though... Cause she wouldn't let it go 😑 She kept contacting me saying sorry and that "she just wanted to talk" 🙄
This was my bad... I let that person in. So for that I felt a little crappy about it haha


Wow... I ended up writing so much weird junk here.

Well I'm gonna go play Borderlands with Frost now.
Freyster is staying with mom and Lasse tonight. So Frost & I are gonna have an adult night haha
No idea what an adult night is, but we're having it 😂

My baby

Long time no see bruh... 😅

Well, as you may have noticed. I went somewhat AWOL... 🤷🏻‍♀️

But there's still some things that should be posted on here. Like my daughter's 5th birthday 🥳💕✨
We celebrated it on Tuesday with the fam, and she was so happy~

And then yesterday, Freya had her very first birthday party for friends. Needless to say, I was petrified.

Like, I can handle kids. I'm like a giant kid myself most of the time so.... That wasn't an issue.

What terrified me was the parents.
If you know me, you should know by now how awkward I can be. And weird. I mean, I'm charming yes. I know. But I still find it hard to relate to mom's at the daycare. 🤷🏻‍♀️ Cause they're so fancy, talking about brand shit and junk.... And that's really not my forte.

But luckily, there was only one parent that chose to stay, apart from my friend Sofi & Moa of course. They stayed with their kids obviously. Cause duh. We wanted to hang out too haha
And the other parent that stayed just so happened to be very similar to me. Lucky me indeed.

And the kids had a hoot. Freya had so much fun, and they got to play Mario Kart, ear cake (which I was told was fucking delicious 👌🏻) I kinda winged it... I always do. Haha So I was happy to hear that it was a success. 😏

In the end, I ended up drawing unicorns that they could color. That was a homerun as well. Woooh~

Should've done that from the get go really. Had I know that they'd like it so much I would've started the party with it lol

Well, I'm happy.

Shit went just the way I wanted it to. ✨👌🏻

A tiny update

Yooo....

I realized that I haven't made an update in a long time, so I figured I'd make a small one now.

So... Lots of stuff has happened.
For instance, within these past two weeks, my knee got dislocated three times. Three! Fucking insane.... Each time it happens, the looser it gets. So now I'm fully ready to accept the surgery. I'll do it. The recovery will take a loooong time... And the pain that comes with it will also be tremendous. But it'll be worth it. At least that's what I've been told 🤷🏻‍♀️

Ah, a few new earrings arrived as well. I'm really really pleased with them 😊

These ones, I only bought them cause Freya really loved them. She loves the moon and all the starts and planets (but especially the moon....she's always loved that) So she's very happy when I wear these haha

Last night Nathalie dropped by, she bought me some milk 🙏🏻😊 Muchly appreciated. We talked for a long time... It's been a rough time for her lately. So I think she needed a talk just as much as I did. Not that I'm very good for anything, but I hope I was of some help at the very least.

Freyster's been having a good time lately too. She's actually grown so much recently, and it's fun talking to her and discussing things. My weasel is a very smart little one haha

What she's looking forward to the most right now, is probably her birthday and going to Granny's summer house. 😊🖤


Well, that's the small update 🤷🏻‍♀️

Right now, me and Frost are laying on the couch watching Marco Polo. Yep yep... He's seem to wanna drag me to bed early tonight 🙄

We'll see how that goes lol

The weekend

Alrighty theeeen....

Here's some pics from when sofi and I went with the kids to hishave fun~ 

All in all, I've had a good time..

Today was a good daaaaaaay

 Sooo... Today's been a somewhat

 decent day ¯\_(ツ)_/¯  

Haha Nah but really, it's kinda been really nice~

A nice walk, lunch and TINY ADORABLE DUCKY BAAAAABIIIIIEEEESS 😍😍😍

Gaah so cute~ 🥰

I've been stuck reading my book for like four days straight now. And I can't stop haha it's actually really good. Who would've think that THIS book would be so fascinating? 🤷🏻‍♀️
And thaaaaat's what I'm doing the rest of the evening 📖

I mean, they called it short....

But I dunno if a 1777 chapters 

could be considered short? 🤔

Well, the chapters I guess might be somewhat short 🤔🤔 

But this shit is still long as fuuuuuck.

What if I get tired when I'm on like 

chapter 1003? 😲😳  Naaaw.... That  ain't possible 😚 it's too good.