nightmare

I took a nap earlier... but it was a short nap.
Woke up screaming...

I dream of the night you died. It was as if I were the one dying, not you. Being sucked down in the cold wet darkness...till nothing could be seen anymore. How awful it must've been for you.

To not know when you died, to not have a memorial day for you... I can't even remember the season anymore... It's strange how some of the memories seem to fade with time...
All I remember now is how kind you were. So pure and kindhearted. Always did everything to make others happy. You never found love... yet love was what you deserved the most. You were inrcedibly loved by all of us.

It's been a long time since I had this dream... it's been along time since I thought of you... I called mum just now and talked about you. But she knows your'e in a better place now as well.

It's a scary dream. I never cry, but whenever I have this dream tears always come. You must've been so scared, so filled with panic... and betrayal. That's what I feel in the dream. Pure fear and panic. So cold and dark...
We all know someone did this to you. And that someone will burn in hell for what he did.


It is of comfort to know that you are doing well now, that your'e in a place where you belong, where you are finally happy.

I wonder why I dreamt of this now?
I wonder what it means....