AssWhore

First of all, I fucking hate O'Hare airport. I hate it with all my heart. O'HARE AIRPORT SUCKS BALLS!!!

Second of all: There's no wifi available AT all. Even Finland had fucking wifi. Yet such a big airport like this has no wifi whatsoever?! Wtf? And when I asked someone who worked here they said you had to pay 6 dollar for 50 minutes. Which the desperate me tried to do... But no. Stupid wifi just took a shit all over me today.

Third of all, YOU'RE NOT ALLOWED TO SMOKE!!
ANYWHERE!!
Not allowed within the airport. . . The fuck?

And fourth of all... Around the gate somehow I managed to get a message from Frost and I started crying like an idiot. And now I can stop crying.
People are staring at me and I feel stupid, yet I can't stop. And I can't answer him either cause I'm can't use wifi.... which makes me cry even more.... Haha

Well, I don't know when this will come up on my blog. Maybe at Heathrow? Or maybe my luck will suck so bad that y'all see this when I'm in Sweden. Whatever. I'm just having a rant. I'm tired, sad and lonely and nervous as fuck. And I miss Frost... I'll continue with my rant now.

I tried so hard not to cry at the airport when I said good bye to Frost. That was one of the most heartbreaking moments in my life tbh.
And then the man who checked my bag and junk at the security asked me why I looked so sad, and I almost started crying then too.

Great day. Really.

And I'm stuck at my gate for 4 hours cause I can't leave (I did once though, I left the airport just to take a quick smoke outside and I had to spend over one hour at the security) So I ain't leaving my gate again to go through that. Also, my bag's so heavy it hurts to carry it around now. The no smoking part is annoying the fuck out of me though.... I HATE this stupid airport. And also, every single person that works here that I've asked about directions....none of them spoke proper English. NONE. Not even the least bit well.

So... Now I have 4 hours of PURE SHIT ahead of me. Nothing to do, nothing to look at, no one to talk to.. Just sitting here staring out of the window. That alone is enough to make me cry. And not being able to at least tell Frost that I'm alright. (Which I ain't, cause I'm about to snap soon)

Just let me be a bit whiny and sad for a while alright? I feel sad and childish right now and IT'S OK TO FEEL LIKE THAT SOMETIMES.




I need a cigarette.
And more coffee now...