Voyager

This book is so... well it's soooo many things! Intense, passionate, vivid, sad, detailed, romantic, tragic, devastate, historical, magical, insane, wonderful, and beautiful. :)

It's amazing so far. 

The only time I get to read is actually at work. But I don't mind. It makes the time go by faster. Though it does suck when I need to get up and do shit in the middle of a huge plot or something  lol 

Like when it's super dramatic and you're totally into it, and then someone brutally pulls you away, and heartlessly tosses you back to reality and you have to continue working haha Sad right?

#DianaGabaldon #Outlander 

Good morning sunshines!

The sun definitely ain't shining today... Such a cloudy grey morning. And cold as fuck. (or duck as my phone would say lol)

Luckily I've got a hot cup of coffee to warm me up. :)

This is my favorite part of a workday... waiting on the bus, and riding on the bus... listening to good music, drinking my coffee and just sitting there with LeiLei.

But it's seriously way too cold to be the end of April now. I mean,  it fucking snowed till the middle of the night yesterday. Like wtf? Fuck you April. F.U.

Moving on. Gotta rush now cause the bus is here. Time to go to work.

I've been longing for a nap since yesterday haha can't wait till I can take s nap at work lol But I've got laundry to do so... Blah. *casually takes another sip of the coffee while looking mischievous, and sneakily staring at a random stranger* 

I like to start the day while making someone feel uncomfortable. -_- Right about now, the person (or should I say victim) is starting to feel self-conscious and wondering if I know something about him. Nervously rubbing his mouth in case I'm staring at any left over food that could've gotten stuck on his face. 

There's no food.

There's no reason I'm looking at you while looking like I know your secret.

I don't know your secret.

It's cause I'm sleepy., and my eyes accidentally rested on your face. 

Plus having a resting bitch face syndrome make shit weird no matter if I stare at you unconsciously or not lol  

However if I suddenly smiled now, mister numbnut would probably assume that I wanted something right? *sigh* It's kinda sad that in this day and age you can't give someone a smile without wanting anything. I smiled earlier to a man just to be nice. And he smiled back. :D
And then I said "have a really nice day" to the man who sold me my coffee. :)

I can occasionally be very sweet. Especially to the man who makes me morning coffee lol (you have no idea what kind of power those kinds of people have)

So beautiful

And thus my raise has been decided and approved. YAY!

We had a meeting today and it went swell. I think it'll be good working for a new company.
It ain't a big company but it seems to have a good reputation (I google shit)

Tomorrow is a dreadful day. I'm getting a spiral. Gah... my uterus is already crying. It knows what's about to come. I'm eating ice cream for lunch then. Yep.

Listening to the sound of silence now instead.


 

A new day & yesterday's dinner

Yeah I made a real nice dinner yesterday. :) Probably the best ground beef sauce I've ever made, so far. Haha

The Freyster and her dad ate it with gluten free macaronis, while I had it with broccoli. Finally, since before i was pregnant I'm starting to like broccoli again. Perfect timing too. I'll be eating a lot of broccoli from now on. Gonna go on the diet a little hardcore for myself here. I think I need it, (kinda like a kick in the ass)

Right now I'm on my way to work. Enjoying myself a large cup of cappuccino. (I deserve it. Especially considering how my ass is feeling. Sciatic fucknerve fucking with me)

Well I'll just fix things up on the blog inner I get to work. It'll be a busy day. Meeting and shit.

I'm listening to some Irish punk so kick the day going, but before that I actually listened to disturbed - sound of silence :) so good.

They're back from the hospital

I decided to delete my previous post. It was such a negative and scary post really.
They finally got to go home :) And my mom and sister was with them the entire time.

It turns out Freya probably has food poisoning. I guess I should be relieved to hear that.

Her head is fine :) And she was superlively there hahaha till she threw up again. (either food poisoning or one hell of a vicious stomach flu) But it leans to poisoning.

lol Frost has changed clothes 5 times tonight due to the vomit. Guess we'll do laundry on our nice day tomorrow. Yep. I think I'll pamper him best I can tomorrow :)

She fell asleep fast, said Frost. I wish I could snuggle up with them too. (minus getting puked at of course) I hope she's not in pain. Poor baby koala. We'll snuggle in the morning. Hopefully she'll be supertired so I can snuggle her too in the morning.

Urk......... the alarm just went off. Someone is up and moving in this building. -_-

Damn it. I wanted a peaceful night at work.

I'll continue watching Outlander and House in a bit. 

Aaah I'm so happy my doodle is ok <3

Confidential

(Look at my peachpie, she's adorable)

Well... Recently, due to certain events...people have asked me about my confidentiality. (Work wise that is) It's not like I'm being accused of anything. But people ask and wonder.

About me writing a lot about work on my blog.
But I've always been thorough reading through my posts before posting them. I never mention names, and I just use nicknames. (I like nicknames)

And the best part is that I work for three different companies. And I work a LOT. So you never actually know who I'm with. Unless you know me that is haha

I don't break my contract so don't worry.
And a lot of people ask me what I work with and for whom.
And all I can say is that I'm a caretaker for an awesome person. <----
That's about it. I call this person A.
Cause it sounds cool and creepy like "A" in Pretty Little Liars hahahaha Mysterious huh?

Btw I'm about to start working for another company soon. (Probably anyway) Interesting indeed. It's a very small company but it shows great care for it's costumers, and that kinda sounds like something I'd go for. So we'll see what happens on that front soon.

In this meantime you can look at my sweet babypuff. My darling Freyatron who grows up so fast. :< *sniffles*

Sometimes

There's are days when you're way more lovey dovey than usual l, you know? We've been like this for a while haha
Hey, I think it's awesome that we can be this mushy with each other still after 4 years. :)

Ah, last night was sooooo nice.
Especially when all three of us fell asleep in Freya's room haha I fell asleep on Frost's shoulder and Freya fell asleep on top of me (kinda wedged in between the two of us haha) and there we laid. Till Frost and I woke up and decided to snuggle on our own in our bed haha

It's good for the soul to snuggle your loved ones. Did you know that?

I think every relationship needs a moment each day where you just lay down and snuggle. :D Right? Right!?

Anyway... It's probably time for me to finish breakfast. I'm so tired... A is playing candy crush and I see my chance for a nap here haha

Btw, A and I just planned something radical hahaha

toot

Me and A decided to sleep in the living room tonight. I'm on the couch, and A's on the pillow on the floor. We're watching the last few episode of Friends. I'm just gonna say 'Aaaaw'  about this episode. haha

It's been a nice day at work :) Though I'm sleepy as hell.
(I might pass out soon..yup) I miss my family a lot..
I usually talk to Frost right before I go to sleep, but I'm afraid I'll pass out before I get too. :/
Ah! It's Superbowl tonight!! :D

yaaaaay!

Better mood

Yeah, so I'm in a waaaay better mood now. Yup.

Turns out the dentist was well informed about EDS. So he knew that the anesthesia might not work.
Anesthesia is difficult for someone like me. But I told him that as long as he let me have the time to calm down and meditate a little then it'd be fine.

See, the more nervous or tense I am... the less any kind of anesthesia, sedatives or anything like that works on me. It's true.

I once had to go through a procedure (I won't go into the details since it wasn't one of my prouder moments...) but it was kinda brutal. They pumped me up with both sedatives and painkillers (morphine) and I was extreeeeeemely nervous and tense. NOTHING WORKED. In the end I threatened to kick the nurse but I apologized immediately too and said that I might actually kick one of them cause it hurt so much and I couldn't control my reactions. "More sedatives!! MORE SEDATIVES!" the doc yelled. It was kinda funny, kinda looked like in Grey's Anatomy or something lol The sweet nurse pumped me up with more. And more. And more. And more morphine. Till I reached the human limit and they had to stop cause you can only put so much sedatives in a body apparently.

And when they gave up. I relaxed.

And I went batshit crazy. I said awful things, made extremely lame jokes (though I found them to be hysterical at the moment. I mean, If you know what kind of procedure it was you'd laugh hehe) And I laid back and sang children songs.. And apparently I sounded really creepy singing some songs cause the nurse said it reminded them of a haunted hospital movie where a child would haunt people and hum on songs like I did HAHAHA So I was moved to another spot. Locked in hah.


Oh shit... I wrote a lot huh?
Well anyway.. my point was that shit don't work good on me, unless I have valium or if I'm very determined and meditates.

So it went great. :D (I was honestly so panicky before I met the dentist that my tummy started to feel really bad..) But he was great. It felt like such a relief too that he knew about EDS and stuff like that. And he said if I choose to go to him  after this as well then he'd hook me up with some of those blue pills lmao Nah but seriously, he said we'd fix a good way to handle my nervousness. Either some sedatives that I'll eat before going or some other way. Cause the reason I relaxed easily today was cause it was such a small procedure. But if I would have to get a root canal then I'd have to be nearly unconscious for a sedative and anesthesia to work. Seriously...

The reason I'm so scared of dentists is mainly because I've felt the horrible pain of when the anesthesia doesn't work. 6 doses and it still didn't make a difference. And that's stuck inside me now. I can't just stop being terrified of them. But he did ease my mind.

Plus.................. my employers dad told me what it's like to get a root canal. THAT REALLY DIDN'T MAKE THINGS EASIER. Not one bit lol



So, let's move on.

I've had a nice week though. we went to town, since it's hindersmässan the other day.
Freya got her first balloon and she loved it!!

 She also got an organic chocolate lollipop to suck on.

I chose chocolate cause it's soft.

And don't worry, even if she got treaty treats that day,

her favorite treats is still raisins, smoothies and quark haha

Talking about raisins, I never thought I would love to watch someone nibble on something or eating something as much as I do when she does it. She's just too damn cute. And she LOVES the raisins, and she gets really stingy with them too haha Cheapskate. And then all of a sudden she picks on out of her tiny little mini-box and holds her hand to my face. It's for meeee~
Well gosh. Don't that just melt a mom's heart haha

It's been a calm workweek though. One 26H shift, and then a short shift at my other job yesterday.
That's when half the tooth fell out. -__- But! Before that happened I got a late christmas gift from my boss! :D

I was surprised actually, especially when I opened it.
It was an iittala bowl. :D

I guess you could say I'm pretty high right now. I indeed took my fair share of painkillers today.
My body is the least of my problems at the moment ;D

Mmmm....

I think I've found my favorite kind of coffee.
Kahl's coffee. Mmmmm.... Yum yum.

Yet another work day is almost at it's end. Though work continues till midnight and then starts again tomorrow morning ¬_¬ Meh. Aaaand then there's work again on Saturday. Oh well oh well.

Top of the morning to ya

I saw this this morning when I was getting home from work. Ain't too shabby of a view huh?

Freya is doodling around on the floor. Singing and throwing her shoes around... (oh the joy) Getting all dirty too. Gah...

She's just perfect. That snugglepuff of mine.

A new day

Today started fucking PERFECT. It did! I shit you not.

I slept long and good next to my snuggletree.

The plans for yesterday was to watch a movie with Frost... but since I was too freakin' tired for it when it was 9 o'clock, I was even more tired when I had put Freya to bed and came out of her room around 10 o'clock.

So...no movie then. -_-  Fail.
 I could barely keep my eyes open. And I had been like that ALL day really, basically since I got back from work yesterday. My plans of having a nap failed too cause people just kept on coming over haha I'm not complaining though. I was happy to have Josse over too :3

And Sofi and Petter came over with Lykke, and they brought a late b-day gift for Freya. Aaaws.
Cutest little outfit ever ^_^ And Ida dropped by too with another gift for The Frey. :)
So... yeah. I had no chance of napping. I played a lot with Freya though and that was superfun :D She laughed so much. <3  And Frost and I played Destiny together during the day.


But anyway...yeah. The movie night last night was cancelled. we went to bed at 10 and fell asleep like BAM and slept non stop till 8 o'clock this morning. And it felt sooooooooooooooooooo good.

I feel like I got the sleep I needed finally. I feel mentally refreshed.
Plus I got to sneak some free snuggles from Frost. Tehehehe~

Aaah. It felt good waking up and looking at the clock. Woke up 10 minutes before the alarm clock went off. YaY me~

However, by the time me and Lei Lei sat on the bus....... Freya apparently pooped like crazy. And I quote: 'Freya just pooped the worst poop she ever has, it was everywhere and sticky and t took twenty wipes....'

And 'it was terrible'. looooooooool hahaha Gosh, i couldn't help laughing like crazy. I felt like I accidentally jumped over a landmine that went off as soon as I was in the clear HAHAHHA!

Oh and let me tell you........ the bussride was insane.
Even waiting for the bus was insane.
Not a soul as far as the eye could see. (except for the weirdo waving at the cars....) I don't think I've ever seen that no one was waiting for a bus or train. It actually made me feel awkward after a while...like...what if the bus ain't coming here? Maybe that's why I'm all alone here? IS the bus doing a detour somewhere else instead? Is there something I'm missing?

And then...the bus finally came. And it wasn't a regular bus. it was so weird.
It looked super neat and clean inside. And it was superlong too. SO I had to walk to the faaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaar end of the bus with Lei Lei.
For a moment, I started to question if I was sane or not. Was this an imaginary bus I got? And the heat...omg the heat inside the bus almost made me wanna faint. SO WARM. Like it'd been minus degrees outside or something. Both me and LeiLei were like gasping for air almost melting away.

And he was driving sooooo slow too...

Anyway. LeiLei is laying outside on the porch right now, and I'm sipping on coffee and eating blue cheese on crackers. Aaah... a regular work sunday.

I have a few days off after this. Cool beans.


Ah, guess what we're having for brunch today?

American pancakes and legit Canadian maple syrup. Just the way I like it.

'Maple Joe'  It's like the syrup was made for meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ haha

Thoughts and a slight rant

I guess you could say that I have a problem....Or maybe not? To care or not to care. That is the question.
Of course I care a bit...

I kinda have coworkers who don't like me. O_o (Yes yes I know everyone does)
I'm just not sure how to react. So I'm just pretending like it rains.
They can't get a hang of me (?) I'm difficult to get to know apparently. . . . .

It kinda made me feel like an outcast. Again. (Don't worry, my heart ain't broken)
But I mean.... am I that hard to like? I don't get it.
Though, I make them laugh like crazy. And I see that as a good thang.
Laughter is good for the soul.



But then again... I'm not trying to make new best fucking buddies here either. I'm well aware that I'm different from you. I know you think I'm weird. And..yeah. Guess I am a little weird ^^  haha
But what I do care about is that all my employers see me. That they see the real me and that they like me.

And I also know that some of the stuff they (you know...theeeeeeeeey) think about me is actually due to jealousy. (sad but true)
Yep. No need to get into details but I know this for a fact. It shows on your face.
Jealousy is an ugly trait btw. You should drop it.


Moving on:
So... I hate drama. And I told my employers this too. I told them that I don't want any part of it, even if it's me they're talking about. Let's all just pretend like it rains. I fucking hate drama and conflicts. I'm like fucking Switzerland. Keep your shit away from me. It's totally fine if you hate me. I can handle it. I'll still smile at you and talk to you and make jokes like usual. I mean....I hate some people too. (Actually I don't....I might not LIKE some people but I don't dislike hate them either) But my point is, everyone's entitled to their own opinion. <----

Just make sure it's your OWN. And not something others feed you.
I know ladies talk. And some are weaker than others...and they get swayed by others opinions.



I guess I'm just not cut out to get along with chicks?
All the girls I do get along with are kinda............................well....Different lol

And I fucking love all of you.
And I know you know who you guys are. Duh.
Which ladies do I get along with? Hmmm. haha


And for you others that don't like me:





Yes. I know. You have no idea who Joan is. You don't know much about older music at all do ya? Meh. At least one of my employers do. And we have fucking awesome rock medleys daily!


Aaaaaaaaaaaah I work night shifts at my other jon next week. Shit. It's been over a month almost since I worked there last time. Gosh. Time flies. Half of them love me, the other half don't know, and a few are like meh. haha Story of my life.

Back to topic.
This phenomenon just makes me  realize it more and more that I ain't cut out to make new friends. It's always like this. They either love me and gets super into me real fast, or they back away. Acting like I'm a freak that might bite.

And the ones that likes me usually REALLY likes me.

Thank God both my (or should I say all Three) of my employers likes me a lot :D


And one of them is currently snoring like hell. lol
I care about this certain one's opinion though. She matters to me.
I like this employer plus I have fun with her. So as long as I have someone who likes me, that's always better than 5 who hates me ^^

Guess it's time for me to go to bed too. Got some cleaning to do first.

A nice morning at work

A's still asleep...and I'm sitting here, just enjoying my coffee really.
Lei Lei's been liking it here :)

I better get my shit together now and go home. My back is a little sore...not from A though. More from the night personal that did shit wrong -_-

Aaaaaaanyway.......I've got this Sunday off, but I've got work tomorrow again.
Sweet!

Mjaauu

Hello doodles. How ya'll doin' this fine evening?

Ya know... I really like my job.
This how I started it:

I started working fulltime at A's place today. And so far, it's been an awesome day.
Iv'e snoozed a bit... fell asleep like a slob on the couch (and this couch is fucking amazing! It feels so gooooooood...) And all of a sudden the doorbell rings and the home care service is here lol

And I'm all like:

Half dead basically.


But it's been a good day. A is working on an essay, I'm helping a little haha
And I'm eating chili nuts. And ate peasoup earlier. Yum.

It's kinda of a nostalgic feeling to be here too.
But I sure do miss my sweet baby and my awesome sweet man :D

Welp, I'm gonna lay down, chill a little and watch some House now.

me and A just had the bestest most awesome idea ever for her essay intro!!! :D

I'm fucking excellent!

And I'm glad I managed to be of help :)

I came up with an idea of mentioning The Odyssey or Hercules in the intro.

And adding that all heroes has an arch nemesis. Like Sherlock Holmes has Professor Moriarty.

Or Professor Xavier has Magneto. :) 

(they're kind of a good example actually. Cause they used to be besties)

It's perfect. :D Unless your'e an action Hero like Bruce Willis lol

Then anyone's your enemy hahahahah 

I like doing an essays and writing long papers and shit. :)
If it's about something I like anyway.

And A's doing a paper on Heroism.

So we're mentioning all kinds of heroes. :D

And you know me...............

I'M ALL ABOUT THE HEROES!

I'm a superhero naaaaoooooow!

Hey, guess what?

It's work time again hah.

Night shift though. Iiiiih my favorite!


Yea, as soon as I though that, my coworked just came and pooped on it all, telling me about the poopscapedes that's been going on all evening. Aaaand probably will ALL night. Hmm..

And this is me right at this moment:

But oh well... shit happens. lol hahahaah  I didn't even mean for that to happen. *badomtiish!* Anyway. House M.D now.


 I know I certainly wont be bored, that's for sure.
 Plus I've got plenty to eat...so that's nice. Even got a meatloaf I forgot in the freezer somewhere. Neat!


Frost & Freya actually walked me to the bus stop this evening to wave bye bye. haha Aaaws...My sweethearts. They're nice family. I'mma keep them forever.



Oh, and last night I hung out with Nathalie after work. Played some CoD AW with the new controller and headsets. Sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet. It was pretty fucking cool.

Unfortunatelly I seem to have attracted a weird stalker -_-
Welp, if it continues Frost will help me block him. Cause I'm not sure how to do it myself hahahaha Bet it's just going to their profile or something?

Sunrise agaaaaiiin

I like watching the sunrises.
It's chilly outside, a little misty, the steam from my hot coffee fluttering around... And that smell of  "early morning" grass....know what I mean?

Meh, Anyway... I like sunrises. They're harder to catch than sunsets if you think about it haha


wellp, work's over now so adios!

The nighshift

Woptidoooo.... I actually enjoy working night shifts.

It's quiet, calm... I get to be on my own, watching House ..eating pizza. Bla bla bla... Doing laundry too of course.

I don't sit on my ass aaaaall the time haha

Sheepy

Tbh, I'm a little sleepy at the moment. But just a little.

I've had a good day :) I worked 3 hours this morning (omg 3 whole hours........)  BUT I just so happen to be working the night shift tonight as well. Aaaand tomorrow night too. YAY ME. (still a lil' sleepy though..)

Man, it was raining like crazy this morning when I went to work.
I sat down and knitted a piece while waiting for the bus. (Oddly some people stared at me in a weird way..)
It was kinda nice hearing the pouring rain then. I usually like rain.

But then again, I had to throw my knitted coat, shoes and socks in the dryer as soon as I got to work. Thank god they have one of those super modern ones that makes shit dry in no time :D

And I also happened to get pink lilies from Frost (thank you honey) AND the new case for the xbox one controller..like OMG. Look at how awesomely fabulous and rad my controller is.

Anyone noticing the control freak? Hmm? Well whatever, it's supercool anyway.

Plus, my earings finally came. woho. Been waiting ages for these ones :D
I like 'em.


I guess I'll snuggle my family a bit now before my sister picks me up and drives me to work :)

Morning morning

It's an early morning at work. It's about 06:55 or something? And I'm enjoying a nice cup of hot coffee while listening to the birds tweet.

And everyone is still asleep.

I'm about to go and wake a little doodle up. And then another one and another one. Yep. They all need to wake up and get ready for the Monday.