So it's Monday... Frost left a while ago for work. I hope it goes well, and I sure as shit hope he doesn't fall off a roof. 😑

Freya woke up before he left and she was very sad that dad wouldn't be home with her anymore. She even said that this is a big change for her now, since he's been home for a while. Haha my little snufflepuff. 💖

But she's right.... It's going to feel strange being home alone now. Good, but strange. I'm going to do shit that I can't do while he's home... Like watch my lame asian rom-coms and anime 😂 and play videogames. Videogames is always an awesome way to pass time for me.

We went for a busride on Friday to see his workplace, so he'll know where to get off the bus and shit. Cause he CAN'T miss that bus stop. He's fucked if he does. But I'm sure he'll get it right....anyway, we stopped for hindersmässan on the way back. And Freya got herself a unicorn balloon that she loves more than anything. I'm dreading the day when it'll be out of helium.... She's gonna be fucking heartbroken.

We're talking about a balloon that needs the first row infront of the TV so it "can see the TV properly". And she even "feeds it" and plays all day with it. And she walks it around too.... Right now it's riiiight next to the bed. Haha

Anyhoooo..... It's like 6am now, he left 20 minutes ago, so I'm gonna head back to bed.
Been trying to get ahold of my fart stain sister since I have a pair of leggings here that she wants. 🙄 We'll see if she drops by in 30 minutes or not.

I'm surprisingly well rested. I went to bed the same time as Frost last night, and I feel good. Well, good-ish at least. 😅
My back is killing me....but I'm fine.

Freya gets to stay at home today. She was well enough to go to daycare after her chicken pox, but then she got a nasty cold so...she's been sick all weekend. She looked drunk yesterday haha she was so cute though, all delirious and weak and snuggly. Red cheeks and super needy. 💖💖💖
I hope she feels better today.

Snugglepuff

We've had a very good morning here.

Freya came home yesterday from salen, and we missed her so fucking much. 

So we've been playing Mario in the morning and ate breakfast and snuggled 😁

It's a nice day today

Been out for a nice walk This morning with Josse. I even got a reward from her lmao

Oh, and Freya's got the chicken pox. Yay 😑
But she's happy and shit so it's not that bad, except that it itches like crazy for her. That's gotta suck....poor baby.

I forgot about these

So here I am, laying in the bed chillin' like a vilain, with scented candles and shit. Freyster's hoping around and I hear her listening to her new app on the phone. It's an app about planets. Have I mentioned that before? She loves it. I keep hearing "Saturn, correct" and "Neptune, correct". Today she learned that beptne has 13 moons and Uranus has 27. Not that she'll remember that tomorrow, but still. She's oh so fascinated with it.

I was looking at my phonr and I found all these pictures from a few days ago when me, Frost & Freya went to "Barnens Ö" (children's island) Now, that's more of a place you go during the summer. Kids fucking love it there. I kinda do too tbh haha I mean, thevyve got a little chu chu train, petting zoo's, tiny little go karts, playgrounds and paddling cars...you know, those cars that you have to paddle to make them go around? Yeah those.

Obviously during the winter there's really none of that shit. Except playgrounds and beautiful scenery really. Freyster had a hoot, and that's what matters.

She's cute, our weasel.

On Sunday, Freya is going to Sälen with granny, Lasse & Josse. Id I'd love to go too....seruo seri, I'd love to Sälen but what would I di there? It's not like I can even walk ninormal so I bet there'd be nothing for me to do except hide in a cabin.
Which sounds fucking nice itself tbh...hahaha But nah... One day I'll go there and enjoy a cabin I guess lol

She'll be gone for 5 days. She won't be home till Thursday....it'll he so strange and so quiet. 😐 But there are perks to it too.... We get to sleep in. It'll be the last week Frost can sleep long like that so it's kind of the perfect timing. On Monday after that he starts his new job and he'll have to get up around 5am everyday.

We'll make sure to enjoy this week to the fullest then. On Friday wellw go have fun with Moa & Arthur. Freyster will love that. 💖

Alright... I gotta go check in the chicken, I'm making dinner right now. 😋

Chockers

I got a bunch of new chockers in the mail today. 😃😃😃 (Excuse my "deer caught in the headlights" kind of face. I can't do much about my face....it would seen that I was born with it) 

But hey, for once it's not a "resting bitch face syndrome" kind of face. So I've got that going for me...which is cool.

Aaaw I sure do like chockers though. The first thing I did was to accidentally dip one of them in my cup of hot cocoa. Yep 😊😊😊 

Tasty chockers 👌🏻

When things are good

This morning, Frost had a job interview at.....well, god knows where the fuck that was really. 🤔

I mean, we swirled around for like 30 minutes in the car looking for that damn place 🙄 Jayzus it was difficult. 😬😬😬

Me and mom waited in the car while he went in. And after 10ish minutes he came out. 

Now, 10 minutes is a very short time for an interview in my opinion...🤔 So I kinda figured that it didn't go down the way we had hoped. 

So I asked him how it went, He said that he didn't know and that he'd find out later if he got the job or not.

10 minutes.... Yeah...he didn't get it. 😑

But then he just giggled and said "just kidding, I got the job"!  Hahaha That little fucker. I really thought that he didn't get it. 

See, this job...it's fucking special. 😶 

These guys rented him from his employer, but after 6 months he might be hired by them personally instead. Do you get what I'm saying? Instead of being rented out to them from the company he works for, he'll just belong to them completely 😀 And that would be fucking fantastic! 

So this is Frost's "lucky fuck" job, ✨

From mechanic to solar panel assembler.  😊 (If anything, he'll also get new skills and workexperiences through this job since they'll teach him at the workplace) and that's always good for future jobs and shit. But if he likes it there .. he'll probably stay there forever 😃

I really want him to have a good work place with good coworkers. It's really fucking important.
The most important thing about a workplace is definitely good coworkers. 👌🏻

We went and "celebrated" afterwards with Semlor and coffee ☕🍰 Omnomnom~ So it's semel time again. 

Well, we're a very very very happy family right now 😁 Got plans to make and shit now.

This is so awesome 😃 and life is really good right now. 

I'm so proud of my doodle 🖤🖤🖤

Coffee break

Frost made coffee just now, which was the perfect timing really.....cause I just put on True Detective, season 3. ☕📺

Also, the first season of True Detective was fucking amazing .

And this looks like it'll be pretty damn good. 

The second season sucked ass tbh 🙄 

Update:

I found what I'm gonna buy for Freya. 

She'll absolutely love it.

As I've mentioned before, she loves space, the moon, stars and planets... And I want that interest to grow too. So first of all I got her an app where she can click planets, and they'll say the name of the planet. Pretty nifty. 

Second, I'm gonna buy her glow in the dark stars and I found the perfect ones. I probably already mentioned that I'm gonna buy stars and covers her ceiling and walls with them. But I'm saying it again. I'm doing it lol 

And I found these:

Since she loves the moon, these would be perfect 👌🏻

Frost went out with Nas, and Frost told Freya about Sofia and Nas's daughter Luna. The reason he told her was because Freya knows what Luna means. And she was extatiex to hear that haha She asked me if she looks like a moon lmao I had to ask her what a person would look like if they looked like a moon. And she said "probably like Luna. Moons are pretty". 

She also found out that Selene means moon....and now she wants to name her sister Selena. 

She doesn't have a sister btw. And I'm certainly not pregnant haha But that doesn't keep her from wanting one 😂

Can't sleep

I've been having really fucking rough nights lately....these past 11 days to be exact. And it's a god damn wonder that I'm still functioning. 🙄

But Frost lets me lay in bed a little extra every morning, so that's probably what keeps me from going insane. 🤔 Yep...that's most likely it.

But it's weird though, cause I'm SO exhausted and sleepy when I go to bed...yet I still won't sleep. How? HOW IS THAT EVEN POSSIBLE?! I don't get it! 😬😬😬


⭐🌠Oh btw, when Freya went to bed she wanted me to make her glow in the dark stars "glow more" lol She'd started to notice them more now, we got this for her when she was a baby, but somehow she just never payed them much attention till now...

I like it, it's cute. Though we love her to Saturn and back is what I always tell her...but obviously they only sold "to the moon and back" back then haha 🌙

(This really wasn't easy to take a picture of in a dark room either haha)

It's the cheap kind, so it doesn't really glow that awesome in the dark if you ask me....🌠

But since Freya absolutely LOVES the moon🌙 stars ✨ and planets 🌘 and all that jazz.... I figured we'd buy her hundreds of "glow in the dark stars & moons and planets" ✨⭐ Her entire ceiling and every wall will be covered in them by the time we're done.

Oset

Soooo I've decided to start painting again (I mean, I need to find the paint thinner first but yeah... I want to finish one of the big oil paintings I've stored away) Plus Freya made a request, she wants me to paint her a big moon, with stars, a strawberry (?) And a fairy...  A space strawberry does sound interesting haha

Oh btw, yesterday me, Josse, Freya & my mom went out on an winter adventure. Haha

We went to "Oset". It's a nature reservation here, and it's fucking beautiful there.😍
I've always loved going there 👌🏻 so we had a little snow picnic too. Which was really nice~ But cold as fuck of course.

I gotta say, I did take some damn amazing pictures didn't I?
Freya had a hoot too, I pulled her in her little sled aaaaaall the way.😁 She was the picnic basket carrier lol The sun sets pretty fast in the winter here, so it got way colder waaaay faster then 😅 ...but it was a real fucking beautiful sunset. ✨👌🏻 It was a nice day though.
Freya was exhausted after all that haha 💛 Having fun in the snow does make you tired. It's like when you play and have fun on a beach you know? Having fun in the water makes you tired as hell, and you always sleep so damn good the same night right?

Well, I've gotta go meet Josse now. Yup.

I've been sorta active

I feel like I've been kinda active this week, for being me that is haha
I mean, let's face it....we all know I'm a lazy fucker that enjoys being a couch potato playing video games and shit. 🙄 (Not just cause I'm lazy though...sometimes the pain is stronger that my will to go out tbh) 

But I do love going outside and having fun with Freya. And that's what I've done.

Plus I've been out with mom & Josse, we got new shoes for moi too.

So now I've got solid winter boots. Sweet 👌🏻✨

I like 'em...they're easy to walk in, they're pretty AND they're warm 👌🏻

Even managed to enjoy an incredibly tasty vanilla latte with them too 💖

Occasionally I've gone on late night walks with Josse too 😊 I like those walks. Yep.

Alright, I guess I really do need to go to bed now. I've had issues sleeping lately so... I end up staying up late. (I did get stuck playing on the switch.....Pokemon let's go is fucking addicting 🙄)

But I did clean the kitchen, did the dishes and all that shit. Even cleaned the make-up brushes I got from Freya this Christmas. My amazingly talented little sister said that I'd be happy if I got them. Aaaand she was right. I love them. 🖤

Tonight, Freyster laid in HER bed, in HER room 😲 she's been having problems sleeping in her room, or even sleeping alone...so she's slept with us in our bed every night. But tonight, we talked...and I said wedw lay with her till she fell asleep...and when she wakes up she can just come to our room and snuggle.

It doesn't matter, if she's scared it's only natural that we want her to come to us 🖤 We're supposed to give her support and be her safe place 💖
Before she went to sleep though, she started crying...and I don't mean the usual tears that comes from a kid when they're sad. Nah, these were HEARTBREAK tears...the sound of her sobbing even made my heart ache 💔 And I wondered what on Earth made her so devestated.... what could make a 4 year old cry like that? Like her heart was shattered... I tried comforting her and hugged her and shut but she just kept crying and sobbing... eventually I managed to make her explain though.
So she cried and said "one day you'll die." Well damn. I did not expect this.

"I don't want you to die... I want to be with you forever mom... you can't die".... Aaaaw shit....And my heart just fucking exploded 😅💔 haha, I almost started crying myself. 😅 How do you explain it all, without making it worse to a 4 year old. YOU DON'T.
I tried at first, but that just made it worse..."mommy won't die yet. I'll be an old grandma by the time I croak". Aaaaaand the years started again. 🙄 So no. You DONT tell your child that you'll die one day. But you don't tell them that you WON'T die either. I said that it's something we'll go into more detail later... and I told her that I'll always be with her. Even if she can't see me...I'm still with her. And she accepted that, and hugged me so hard. D'aaaaw....moments like these makes my heart overflow with love. 💖💖💖

It IS a sad thing to think about though... I get sad just thinking about having to leave her one day 😭 Even the fact that my own mom will die one day makes me so sad. 💔
I think I was Freya's age when I realized that my own mom would die one day...it's so scary and sad to realize that when you're a child. And it's still a scary sad thought...

Anyway, time to sleep.

Sweeeeet Times

Alright, so I gotta say that this week and weekend has been fucking awesome. I mean...we've had so much fun. And that's been really nice.

I'm able to walk normally again so I'm using every opportunity given to go outside and do stuff. (I'm not overworking my body though)

Freya has been outside playing most days, and she's been playing with her friend. And aaaaaw I'm one of those moms who goes AAAAAAWWW when their kid has a friend that they get along with 😍 hahaha Man, I pushed those two down the hill with the fucking speed of light 😂

And then I went down too....cause it's fun.  Duh  🤗
Why wouldn't I? I don't see how other parents don't play around like that, I mean...we GET to play, and pretend like we're doing it just for the kids while we secretly enjoy it lmao 😂
Haha yeah, I swooooooshed down that hill like a rocket 🤣  And Frost stood belowe and cheered for me ahahaha
Freya's friend said she had a funny and goofy mom and was like "yah, she's really cool" hahaha

Apart from that, I've been playing Pokemon let's go on the switch, and we've still played some gears of war when Freya's gone to bed. (My phone insists if changing "Gears Of War" to "Years of ear" EVERY God damn time I write it....it's really frustrating since I don't always double-check what I write before I got send. 😑

I asked Marcus (Mackan) the other day if he wanted to play "years of ear" with me...... He laughed way too much at that. 🙄


Yep....gotta love autocorrect 😑

Date night~

It's Saturday (well I guess it's Sunday now since it's like....4 something in the morning here now? 😅)

But anyway....

Freya slept over att Granny's house today, cause they were gonna have a little party. Which Freya has been super excited about aaaaall week 💖 haha Delicious dinner, dessert and fun~ I'm happy she's had such a good night.

But me and Frost had an awesome night too! We finished playing Gears of war 4 🎮
And then continued on playing Gears of War the ultimate remake edition 🙌🏻👍🏻 Iiiih!

And we had so much fun! It was so nostalgic too. We even played split screen. Haha We had so much fun that we forgot about the time....and all of a sudden it was 3am. 😬 Ooops.😅
Now, I don't expect to be up before noon tomorrow... But when I do get up, we will definitely play some more. Marcus wanted to join too so we'll see what can be done.
But yeah....it's fucking late now 😬😬😬 (now it's suddenly 05:20. Wtf?!)

But that's ok, Freya isn't home in the morning so we don't have to get up early really.
Oh Frost also made fucking delicious homemade burgers 😍 OMG they were ridiculously good. 😋

Apart from that, we had a reeeeally good time playing outside with Freya today too tbh. I mean, the weather was kinda crappy but we all enjoyed it anyway 😊 Her having such fun makes it fun for us too.

Yeah, well anyway.... I just wanted to make a small update. 😊

I don't think I've posted anything from new years, have I? Oh well. Another time~