Mothersday

It's Mother's Day here in Sweden today. (And it was the american mothersday on frost's birthday I think 🤔)

And look at what my wee little weasel got me~

I love Lillies of the valley, and Freyster picked a bouquet of them for me 😍 (and her flower picking skills has improved quite a bit too~) haha 🤗 That alone made my day. But I also got a very nice hand cream from "Happy Naturals" with argan oil in it 🥰  I kinda love hand creams and face creams (and I mean good ones. And by "good ones" I mean amazing, organic, healthy and nutritional ones) Too picky? Nah. 🤷🏻‍♀️

And for my mother, me and Josse got her a black currant bush ✌🏻✨ That was a pretty good idea, considering me and my brother got her a small lemon tree 🍋 for her birthday. 

Oh and guess what.   

I made a friend early this morning. 

Mr. Hedgehog 🤩 He was very polite and open-minded. So rare to find open-minded and polite gentlemen these days 🤷🏻‍♀️

So all on all, I've had a good mother's day. And a real good weekend with Frost. 🖤🖤🖤

Old friends

Me and Frost went out with two old friends of mine today. And it was really fucking nice~
Like... I dunno, it felt good. Like old times.
I'm glad I did this tbh 🖤

After a while it started to rain🌧️ and then that shit just came pouring down like cats and dogs 😬☔
But you know me... I like the sound of rain.

And after that we went to Taco Bar, and ate the best Chipotle salad ever (if I had to choose one dish to eat for dinner for the rest of my life...it'd be this salad. 👌🏻😍)

And let's not forget about those delicious Frozen Margaritas 🙌🏻🙌🏻🙌🏻✨ Goodness, they were the flavor of summer 🍓🌞

And after dinner, me and my snuggletree went and watched John Wick 3 👌🏻✨🖤
Which was awesome btw, in case you were wondering haha


Our sweet little Freyster has had a hoot in Zinkgruvan with Grandma & Lasse, so we figured we'd try to have a hoot this weekend too 🖤✨

Anthem ✨

Yoo~

So, I did some changes to my interceptor and my Ranger tonight 😀
And I feel like they're really "me" haha (it's kinda the same colors I stuck with in all the Halo games too ✔️)

So here's my interceptor haha

(Unfortunately she's not really a unicorn 😒)

And here's my Ranger 

(They're both named "Mama Jo" 😂)

Yep, now I'm satisfied 👌🏻✨

Gamernight

So, last night... I dragged Frost with me to take a "nap", so we could have the energy to play Anthem ALL night. (You see my plan there? Resting before the fun?)

Well... The idea was to wake up at maybe 8:30 in the evening. I thought an hour nap seemed appropriate.

Turns out I had turned off the alarm on my sleep I guess. And we woke up at 1:14am.... Yep. Woke up waaay past midnight 🤦🏻‍♀️

Which luckily was ok, since neither Marcus nor Lacey was ready to play. So we ate pizza and watched 'Rim Of The World' while they did their thang😁 

And then close to 3am, we all started playing Anthem. Yuuuuup. 

I had sooo much fun all night. These things are rare btw, since you can't stay up all night when you have a kid to take care of in the morning. (I mean, we've done it before... But you'll be suffering from the consequences of staying up all night then, and it ain't worth it. Trust me.) So THIS, does not happen often. Which is probably why I enjoyed it so much. 😊

But Freyster is in Zinkgruvan with grandma and Lasse having a blast. 

So we had no problems staying up all night playing videogames haha 🤗

Went to bed around 9 in the morning 🤷🏻‍♀️

Woke up around noon-ish. But I've fallen back asleep a few times. 

Well, were gonna meet up with Johann and Åke later, have some coffee and shit. Then work our way over to Taco Bar, have a Chipotle salad and frozen margaritas and then it's movie time! John Wick 3 🙌🏻

Welp, that's about it I guess

Road trip

Right, on Friday my brother needed a ride to Kumla, Cause the MC club had a beer party... So me and Josse drove him. Well, I mean....she drove. I just sat there feeling content and happy about being in this situation with her. Haha

Pretty lame.

But it's been a while since she and I just drove around on the country side. 🤷🏻‍♀️ So I was happy. We stopped at burger king and had milkshakes in the sunset lol

And then we went to Karlslund to watch the sunset too.

Can't really remember when we picked him up, but I suppose it was around 1am? Though we had to fucking wait a long time cause that idiot didn't have his phone on him so he didn't know we were waiting 😑

Plus we also had to drop off his friend in Mosås... Hadn't been there in sooo many years.

Welp, I had fun Friday night.
And that milkshake was really good 👌🏻

Rain

I'm currently laying on the sofa... The entire apartment is pitch black. (We decided to go to bed early cause I've had some problems lately with being too tired every day. I fall asleep all the time 🤷🏻‍♀️) So an early night sounded smart.

But I got stuck just laying on the sofa for a little while... Just listening to the rain. It's one of my favourite sounds. Hearing it patter against the windows... It's extremely relaxing and comforting to me.

Frost just came walking in wondering where I was hiding in the dark (I don't wear bright colors, so I blend in oh so well~ 😂)  and I told him to LISTEN 🙌🏻


So now we're both just laying here on the couch, in the dark...just listening to the rain. 🌧️☔


I like this.


This is a nice moment 🖤

Yo~

Hey, it's been a while....

Well, my lungs are still...."sick"? I guess. But other than that, I'm pretty much fine.

Our birthday was last weekend, got some fun stuff 😊  I didn't show y'all the birthday cake I made huh? Oh oh hang on. Let me show ya.

Man, it was delicious. And apparently so delicious that it disappeared pretty dang quick 🤷🏻‍♀️

But hey, that makes me happy.

Since then, we've just been doodling around. Freya's been learning how to ride a bike, and I've been kinda engrossed in comics and shit so... Yeah.
Btw, I also made a b-day cake for Frost on Saturday. I mean, it was delicious....but still a failure. It had pannacotta in it. Haha but it was fucking awesome.

Well, I have tons of more pics, but it'll be too much.

Sunday morning

I'm playing 'Sunday morning' by Velvet Underground inside my head right now lol 🎶

So, yet again I stayed awake all night 🤷🏻‍♀️

(For those who are borde, I've written a really long blog post again) I tend to do that when I'm bored 😒

 Maybe I should ask the doctors for some other antibiotics? 🤔
See, I went almost the entire day without throwing up, but then juuust when I thought it's cool... I decided to try to eat a little since I had been hungry for hours. I took 2 bites and then threw up again 😒

Not only that but I have other annoying side effects too that are driving me crazy.
Some of them is that I'm nauseous, sleepy, and drowzy... And heartbrun!!

 I seem to be sleepy most of the time. And then after maybe 1 or 2 o'clock in the night, I suddenly feel awake.🤯🤬😵
 But today I decided not to take a nap when I was sleepy... I figured that way I'd be able to sleep during the night.  Smart right?

Well it didn't work.

And when I threw up in the middle of the night, I got super-fucking-duper-awake. 😩 So that sucked...
But Frost kept me entertained so it's alright.💗

But around 5am I was cleaning the kitchen, and did all the dishes too 💪🏻👌🏻 And now, it's past 6am and I'm finally exhausted enough to sleep. It's boring when you can't sleep either. You're sleepy but you can't sleep cause of nausea.

Figured I'd take another pretty picture earlier of the sunrise too. So I did ✨

If only mom could remember the name of the antibiotics she got, it'd be better. That way I could ask for them instead. 🙏🏻
Mom's the same as me... She gets sick from antibiotics. But they changed hers after she complained over how she felt. And she did feel better eating the new ones so...
Maybe I'll complain too. 🤔

Cause if it's going to be like this... For 10 days. 😵 I'm not sure I wanna do that. Like, I can handle it. Definitely. But I don't want to. 😅

And I don't like not sleeping in a cozy bed at night... The only reason it's been alright this weekend is because Frost stayed up with me on both nights. We played Anthem and had fun. And that only worked because Freya wasn't home.
But when she comes home we have routines that we follow and shit 🤷🏻‍♀️

And if I'm gonna have to be sick like this then too... Then I'm gonna be like a fucking zombie 24/7. 😩

And I'll probably just spend the nights awake and alone then. Cause Frost will go to sleep in the evenings so he can go up with Freya in the mornings and stuff. 💖

See, I've already thought long and hard about this. I know how it will be.

It was the EXACT same thing last year. I had lung problems and a nasty cough then too. And I stayed up all night for a week.

Nah I'm calling  the doctor on Monday. 👌🏻
Plus my throat is sore from throwing up. Not coughing....throwing up.
That should tell you how shitty it is.🤷🏻‍♀️

Alright, it's 7am now.. and I'm going to try to sleep.
Frost couldn't keep up with me so he fell asleep a little while ago.

Let's hope that I manage to sleep till at least 12 o'clock today🙏🏻
 That'd be nice... That's 5 hours. 🙌🏻

Frost has some cleaning to do and laundry. And I'm gonna try to just chill out.

weekend

Alright, Hi~
I'm still alive 😅
(remember how I said that antibiotics makes me really sick? Yeah, they still do hah)

So, obviously this weekend didn't quiiiiite turn out as planned, considering how fucking crappy I feel 😩👎

So listen, after I got home from the clinic yesterday, I had a fucking terrible headache. And it just got worse every time I coughed *Jayzus fuckong kraizt it was excruciating...*
Well Josse came over and doodled around a bit before I had to hop on the bike and pick up Freyster from daycare.🚲

Buuuuut before I left I made sure to take two of those very expensive and very limited number of pills that the doctor was very adamant that I should take as soon as possible.😑 But take them I did.
And then after a while, I took a shot of my cough syrup too so that I could like...not cough during Freyas doctors appointment. It seemed like a smart idea at the moment.😶 But apparently I didn't like the flavor of the cough syrup... So I projectile vomited and watched as my two expensive limited amount of pills came down in the toilet.

Anyhoooo.... after cleaning myself up, Josse went home and I got ready again and went and picked up the doodle at daycare. See, I had to pick her up on my bicycle cause she had a freakin' meltdown apparently when she and Frost were done at the dentist. I thought for sure I'd be done at the clinic by 10:30 considering I had been there since 8am.😬 And I had promised her that I'd pick her up like that.
So when I didn't show, she was piiiiiiiiiiiiiiissed.

But I finally picked her up at daycare with my bike, and we rode together to the clinic and she was so happy and cute.
The test went well, and then as soon as we came home mom and Lasse showed up to picked her up. And off they went to zinkgruvan.

But because I had a massive headache, and the pills made me nauseous and sleepy, I ended up sleeping away the entire afternoon/evening. When I woke up it was night time already 😳  Butheuuuut since Freyster was away, Frost & I decided to play anthem all night and have a hoot.

And we really had a fun night together haha

I sure do love my dorky man.


And around 5:30, we decided to "call it a night."
I finally felt like my head wasn't hurting that bad anymore, and I thought that maybe I wouldn't cough so much either now since the cough syrup actually worked really well. I figured I felt slightly crappy because of antibiotics.
I even took a nice pic of the sunrise this morning before going to bed.

But all of a sudden, as I was walking up the stairs I suddenly felt woozy and realized that 'Holy fuck I'm gonna barf!' so I stormed inside only to see that Frost was using the bathroom *heartbreak* And he couldn't understand my muffled grunts (cause I was choking on the vomit) So I knew I wouldn't be able to keep it in till he came out so I ran in the kitchen and I was gonna aim for the zink or the trashbag, whatever was closest.......

But I didn't make it.

I threw up aaaall over the kitchen floor... and the walls.... and the fridge... and the cabinet doors....the oven.... every-fucking-where.

So... yeah. While I sat down getting ready for bed, brushing my teeth and cleaning my face... Frost was on his knees cleaning up all my vomit 😅

I guess you could say that the past 24 hours was kinda like a roller coaster ahaha


But in the end, I did have a great night, and I went to sleep snuggled up against my man. I really appreciated that he cleaned up my mess. I felt really shitty afterwards, my head started pounding again. So it kinda felt nice that I didn't have overexert myself cleaning up my own mess.

So thank you for that honey 🙏  My snuggletree is the best💕



Today we've mostly been resting, I'm still dizzy and nauseous from the antibiotics. But I'm taking them 👍 (and tbh I think I'm already feeling better. And I'm not just saying that so I can quit taking the meds haha I mean it) We also went out for a short bit with Josse. Doing dorky shit.

And then my brother dropped by, he finally got his car moving. He took Frost from me for a while though.............................. but that's cool. I'm a sharebear.

And now it's time for snuggles and then Anthem again 😃💖


I'm realy happy despite feeling crappy. And Freyster is having so much fun in the summerhouse, so that makes me happy too 💛💛💛

Well shit

Like I said... This day did sooo not turn out as planned  😑

Yeah, apparently I've got bronchitis 🙄

*oh joy*  I had that like 7 or 8 years ago and it fucking sucked.

And she said I had a severe bacterial lower lung infection? Yeah something like that. 🤷🏻‍♀️
So now I have to eat antibiotics for 10 freakin' days, and she was really Nazi-strict about that. I must take them 🙄

You know, I don't like antibiotics.... (well I mean, I don't think anyone would be like "Ooooh yum my favorite! Can I have me some more pills guvernor" or something 🤔) hahaha 
But I just don't feel good on them. They tend to make me really sick. 😬
Like... Reeeeaaally sick. Bleh.

Well this is just fantastic.

So now I've got three extra medications I need to take daily, but I can't wait to not cough anymore. Yay!
That's some good fucking vibes for the day right?  Woho!

Fake joy

Remember how I said that I was waiting for a doctor, and made it seem like I could go home after that?

Yeah. No. Haha Silly me 🤦🏻‍♀️

The doctor said this and that, but seemed reluctant to tell me what's wrong really, and now I'm not even allowed to go home 🤷🏻‍♀️

Cause I have to do a fuckton of blood tests now, and then, theeeeen, THEN I thought for sure I could go home finally (I mean, I'm kinda hungry you know?😬 I've been here for FOUR fucking hours now) 
But nooo no, I can't go home after that either. Goofy Jo always thinking that she can escape haha 😅

She said I'm not allowed to leave till she gets my test results 😑😑😑 And she said I had to wait for that, and for her, and then I was like "ugh....FINE. Alright, alright... but then I'll leave".
And she shook her head and smiled and said  "No, then we'll talk" AND I'M DYING ON THE INSIDE NOW LMAO 🤣🤣🤣 she's sronecold.

And even then, she said we'd have to talk. Even when I said that I needed to hurry and pick up my child (LIIIEEES tihi) But they didn't work anyway so I'm still stuck here.


But now I've gotta take a ton of blood tests.....
........and blood tests rarely goes well for me tbh 😩 (they always fuck it up somehow)
They can never find the veins properly. And when they do find them, they can't hit them right.

Update:
Yeah so they couldn't take any blood tests like that 🤣 Cause they couldn't find any veins, even the hands were difficult. So they did a quick CRP test instead through the finger. Yay me!
I hate needles so woho! The faster the better. But now I'm back in the waiting room again...

This is brutal

Ok this day did not quite start the way I had planned it.

I'm at the clinic right now, it's a drop" in" and I've been here for 2 hours and 10 minutes now 😑  My head is fucking pounding from all the coughing I've done... It's hard to breathe and I'm coughing up blood now. Plus my motherfucking neck aaaaand my lower back are killing me. Which is ok, cause I can just rest once I get home. If I ever get home... It feels like I'll die in here FROM OLD FUCKING AGE. This is ridiculous.

I thought I was feeling like shit before I went here, but now I'm like 'Oooooh this is so bad. Yep I think I hit a record wohooo"🎉✨

And right now Frost & Freya are at the dentist.

Freya hit her teeth yesterday when she fell while drinking, so she hit her teeth.
 And I wanted to be absolutely certain that she's ok so I called the dentist to ask for advice, and they wanted her to come in TODAY. Ugh.... So many things in one day 😬
Then at 3 o'clock she's got an appointment at the doctor's office which she's definitely not fucking thrilled about. 🙄

Update:
Freya is done at the dentist, they said she had amazingly good teeth. But that she had some nerve damage from a previous trauma (probably the time she hit her chin at daycare or when she fell in the stairs 🤔😬)
But apparently that's nothing to worry about, Frost made sure to ask about all of it so he could caom down his wife lmao 😅

And me, well I'm still stuck at the clinic.
But they sent me to a doctor's office now to wait instead cause apparently something was wrong with my throat or lungs or something... I don't know 😐

So MORE FUCKING WAITING. Woooh!!

I feel like I'm going insane... Cause my head really hurts now and the neck  too 😭😭😭 cause I've been straining it so much when I cough. Gaah... I just want to go home and fucking naaaaap.

I'm just feeling worse here. I should've just stayed at home this morning. The only reason I came here is because I need cough surup so I can stooooop ...

Ugh.

Anthem

Aaaah guess what me be doings now 👌

Frost & I are having a very nice evening.

And today has been a good day tbh. 

The only bad part of the day would probably be the headache I had earlier.. But it kinda lightened up once we arrived in town (which was lucky... cause that shit was killing my mood)

So we stood there and watched my brother ride his motorcycle with hundreds of other bike riders through the mainstreet in town 😊

 And Freya was SO proud. She was excited from the moment she woke up today. Though for some reason, her leg's been hurting since yesterday so it was a lot of carrying for Frost today. But she got to sit on his shoulders and watch Daniel come rollin' down the street and apparently that was fucking epic in Freyas eyes.

Well, I can understand that. Of course that shit is exciting for a kid. I was the same when I was a child. Yep. haha

But then, when we came home... I guess she had a little bit too much excitement or something, cause she was exhausted and then she got a headache. (But it did start raining shortly after so it could've been that too... hmm) But she had a blast today. And I'm happy she had so much fun. She even got to hang out with Wille for a bit.
And my brother had a good time too so I'm happy for that as well.
I just really wanted my sister with me too, I wanted her to go with us but she couldn't.

I did push myself a little too hard with all that walking, originally we were supposed to ride our bikes to town, but when we went outside we realized that Daniel still had Frost's bike soooo.... yeah.
No choice but to walk. But we took many breaks and rested my knee and shit so I actually feel alright.
it's not too bad. As long as I avoid stairs a bit lol

Well, gotta go to bed soon.

I gotta get up early as fuck tomorrow... yep, early appointment at the clinic. ugh.