Hope

I hope your'e grieving properly. Getting your feelings out of the system...

I'm sorry you lost someone important.

I wish I could be there for her... but I know that if I do that, then I'll ruin it all again.

And I don't want that. 

But she probably can't see what I'm trying to do. I bet it seems weird what I'm doing anyway...

But this is for her in the end. So she can grow and be more independent. 

I'm watching over her though, in my own way.

I miss her a lot though. But I'll deny it if anyone asks.