Of course I care a bit...
I kinda have coworkers who don't
I'm just not sure how to react. So I'm just pretending like it rains.
They can't get a hang of me (?) I'm difficult to get to know apparently. . . . .
It kinda made me feel like an outcast. Again. (Don't worry, my heart ain't broken)
But I mean.... am I that hard to like? I don't get it.
Though, I make them laugh like crazy. And I see that as a good thang.
Laughter is good for the soul.
But then again... I'm not trying to make new best fucking buddies here either. I'm well aware that I'm different from you. I know you think I'm weird. And..yeah. Guess I am a little weird ^^ haha
But what I do care about is that all my employers see me. That they see the real me and that they like me.
And I also know that some of the stuff they (you know...theeeeeeeeey) think about me is actually due to jealousy. (sad but true)
Yep. No need to get into details but I know this for a fact. It shows on your face.
Jealousy is an ugly trait btw. You should drop it.
So... I hate drama. And I told my employers this too. I told them that I don't want any part of it, even if it's me they're talking about. Let's all just pretend like it rains. I fucking hate drama and conflicts. I'm like fucking Switzerland. Keep your shit away from me. It's totally fine if you hate me. I can handle it. I'll still smile at you and talk to you and make jokes like usual. I mean....I hate some people too. (Actually I don't....I might not LIKE some people but I don't dislike hate them either) But my point is, everyone's entitled to their own opinion. <----
Just make sure it's your OWN. And not something others feed you.
I know ladies talk. And some are weaker than others...and they get swayed by others opinions.
I guess I'm just not cut out to get along with chicks?
All the girls I do get along with are kinda............................well....Different lol
And I fucking love all of you.
And I know you know who you guys are. Duh.
Which ladies do I get along with? Hmmm. haha
And for you others that don't like me:
Yes. I know. You have no idea who Joan is. You don't know much about older music at all do ya? Meh. At least one of my employers do. And we have fucking awesome rock medleys daily!
Aaaaaaaaaaaah I work night shifts at my other jon next week. Shit. It's been over a month almost since I worked there last time. Gosh. Time flies. Half of them love me, the other half don't know, and a few are like meh. haha Story of my life.
Back to topic.
This phenomenon just makes me realize it more and more that I ain't cut out to make new friends. It's always like this. They either love me and gets super into me real fast, or they back away. Acting like I'm a freak that might bite.
And the ones that likes me usually REALLY likes me.
Thank God both my (or should I say all Three) of my employers likes me a lot :D
And one of them is currently snoring like hell. lol
I care about this certain one's opinion though. She matters to me.
I like this employer plus I have fun with her. So as long as I have someone who likes me, that's always better than 5 who hates me ^^
Guess it's time for me to go to bed too. Got some cleaning to do first.