What sucked even more is probably that I've been up since 1am. I gave up on sleeping cause Freya's been crying ALL fucking night. I don't know what's wrong... She literally cried almost the entire night.
And now she's in our bed next to Frost. She's finally sleeping peacefully. Aaaand there's really no room for me and I don't see a fucking point in sleeping when it's already 5am anyway. So I've been playing video games, and crying. Yep. That's what I've been doing.
I cried my god damn eyes out.
I'm so tired that I feel like I'm about to break. It's the....what.. Fourth...fifth night without any sleep? I slept for like 15 minutes or so, I know this cause I checked my phone before I fell asleep and when Freya woke me up again.
But like I said. There's two hours left, why the fuck should I even try to sleep?
I'm drinking coffee in the darkness. I'm freezing my ass off out here.
At least Freya is asleep now, no more crying there. I'm calling a doctor today as soon as they open. Something IS wrong with her and I know it. She's in pain and WE KNOW IT. We're her parents, we can tell.
You have no idea how hard and hysterically she cried all night. And there was nothing I could do to make it better. :(
That if anything breaks my heart... I wish I could help my babygirl but I can't.
Well I might've been awake for too long, and that's why I'm a tad bit emotionally unstable. Cause now I'm gonna cry a little more just cause I can.
In the meantime, look at how cute our doodlepop is <3